Musings

Another Day

2012-02-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

Another day..You know, sometimes you wished your life was similar to those of the TV world. I know, I do wish it too sometimes. But then, I think, 'Too much drama, no thanks'. I'm a very lazy and laid back person who hates drama. All I would say would probably be 'Please get it over with'. Probably the reason why I can not stand Korean Dramas.

I used to laugh at the notion of keeping a diary or journal or whatever. Why pour out your feelings to an inanimate object? Then I realised that in a way, that book, or diary or even this blog, becomes a part of you, once you've put so much of yourself into it. It's also quite interesting to see your thoughts grow from year to year. Sometimes, when you read an entry from a month, a year or even few years ago, you find out something special again, no matter how big or small it is. It could be a person's birthday, a sad day, a happy one, an angry one or whatever. But that feeling when you remember that incident and it brings a smile to your face for whatever reasons, is just so nostalgic that you feel you've found an old friend again. It's also nice to just write and write and write with no one stopping you or telling you this isn't appropriate or what not. Your diary, or blog, or journal, is YOUR world. You make the rules. You decide what's in it or not. You decide what you're going to immortalise for the rest of your life, or what you're going to forget. You choose what events define you, make you who you are.

So, in a way, I'm quite glad I've started writing again. It makes me feel, more free, a little by little, than I have ever been. Enough for today, ciao.

Poor Doggie..

2012-02-10T10:33:00.002+08:00

I just saw this beautiful white dog outside my house today. According to my brother it's already been there for a week. I think it's been abandoned. There'e no collar around it's neck and it's eyes are so, so sad. It refused to eat the little food we gave to it, just kept looking around, as if waiting for someone to come. I don't know where it's owner is, but if he or she really did abandon this poor, beautiful and loyal dog, I must say that they are absolutely heartless.

Do they know how sad their dog looks when they have been abandoned? Did they see the pain in it's eyes when it realised it's owner has left it all alone?

I hope the dog will be all right. Trying to find someone to adopt it and get it to the vet, since my 'all mighty' brother just issued an order for me to find someone to take the dog to the vet NOW. Sheesh..Poor doggie.. :(

Back?

2012-02-09T22:42:00.002+08:00

After a long, loong hiatus I've finally come back to this blog. It's been, I think about 2 years? Many things have changed; people gone, going to university, meeting new people. Yeah, life does go on.

I remember the first time I wrote in this blog. I was so full of anger and sadness then, so ready to destroy. But, I'm glad I'm so much more happier now. I feel so much more comfortable in my own skin, with my own personality, no matter how dysfunctional it is. I guess it's what makes me unique.

Let's see, things that have changed. I do read less now, that's a shame. I simply don't have the time to just sit and read. I've started exercising now, finally. I suppose some things have changed for the better, but one thing I regret is that I never write these days. I used to sprout these little stories, projects I have never finished before. But it did give me pleasure to write. Maybe I'll start writing again, and maybe drawing too.

So, I suppose I'll stop here for now, come back in a few days or so. It's nice, actually to see how I recorded my thoughts and how I've changed. Ciao.

Complicated

2010-10-12T17:53:00.003+08:00

Why does everyone have to make everything so complicated?

Is it because I'm too 'naive' to see that everything does not have to be as complicated as you make out?

If you want something, just freaking spit it out already..It's no use tarrying and making contradictory statements or actions.

If you want to solve it, just talk, all right?

Just stop thinking that everyone is out to get to you, and just stop thinking that you're the only one who matters..Don't always think that you're the only one to get hurt.

You're not the only human in this world.

So stop being a coward and just face it.

PPS 2010 Farewell

2010-09-05T22:45:00.004+08:00

I just want to say this. F4 and F3 juniors, all of you..I'm so frigging proud of all of you..

Thank you for giving me these wonderful memories tonight.. Heaven knows how much I will miss all of you..Including the teachers, Ms Cheong, Pn Chen and Pn Mavis and of course Mdm Foo..Hehe..thanks for finally singing tonight..

How could so many wonderful things happen in 3 hours? How could we all laugh till we were hoarse and cheer and sing and cry and hug? I wish tonight would last for eternity, but all good things must come to end..

Thank you for the laughter. Especially media, your sketch was hilarious. The advertisements were funny as well. The dances and the songs were wonderful.

You know what my favourite part was? The part where we hugged each other. As I kept hugging people surrounding me; Xiao Wen, Li Yi, Yit Yeng, Janice, Debbie, Jia Wei, Ying Shyn, Brenda, Jo Ee, Eva, Nicole, 小孩子, Li Li, Xi Yee, Sook Kuen, Wee Shien, Ms Cheong, Pn Mavis.. I realized that I had so many people that I care and love for and I didn't want to say goodbye to them.

But then everyone must say goodbye at some point. The Form 5s say goodbye this year and tonight. But that doesn't mean we'll forget each and everyone of you.

'I promise you, I'm always there, When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair. I'll carry you, when you need a friend. You'll find my footprints in the sand.'

We're always there. And we won't forget. We ask you not to forget as well.

I love you PPS.. I won't ever forget anyone from PPS. You gave me the most memorable memories in my entire life.. You're the best and will always be the best, long after batch after batch of us leave. F4 and F3 pps, Ms Cheong, Pn Mavis, Pn Chen, Mdm Foo.. I love all of you and I hope you won't forget me because I promise..I won't ever forget..

Love..

Power

2010-08-15T19:46:00.002+08:00

What is power to most people? The power to be rich, to have power in the government, to have power to command people around.

The power I want? The power to protect my family, most importantly my brother.

The only way to protect is to have the power to protect. With that power, I can make sure no one touches or hurts my family. With that power, I can crush anyone who tries to hurt my family. With that power, my family will be invincible.

Lelouch vi Brittannia wanted geass to protect his sister, I want power to protect my family. I suppose then, that we aren't that different at all.

I swear by my soul, I will protect my brother and family from everything, even from other family members, be it cousins, uncles or whosoever. I WILL destroy them.

Insanity

2010-08-13T22:24:00.002+08:00

I'm insane, I suppose many people don't know that. Well, not insane, more of mad actually. I'm actually perfectly normal thank you very much, it's just that 'mad' in my case means different from others.

I say I'm mad, but then do mad people admit that they are mad? Do humans know they are mad? Are they even mad?

Maybe not mad, just stupid, insipid and not able to see through everything.

I found today's literature question interesting. The question is, why is love important in a family?

Why is it important? I doubt anyone really knows the answer. Can a family actually exist without love? Depends on what type of family you're talking about. Real life families, the normal families. Is love important for them? If so, then why? Why is it that love is so important that we humans cannot live wihout it?

I used to think that hate could never have existed, should not exist in a family. What do I think now? I found out that, like fairytales, a perfect family is non existent, just like the prince charming every girl dreams for is fake.

Love may be important, but that doesn't mean hate isn't there. Could you love and hate someone at the same time? The answer is yes. I'm not talking about loving and hating your so called lover at the same time because I'm sorry to say, that is just the most worthless thing on the world.

What I mean is the hatred you feel sometimes for one of your famiy members, and yet you love them so deeply at the same time. You feel so sick for hating them and yet you can't help but despise them for that one moment then.

So answer me, is love always there in a family? Or is hate there as well?

PRETEND; DON'T BS!!

2010-08-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

You don't know me so don't pretend
I'm not who you think I am
Just because I show you this
Doesn't mean that it's me

I don't need your stupid lies
I don't need your 'love' you give
So what if I'm just an empty husk
It's not as if I even care

So don't you even dare assume
You know me not just face the truth
So go ahead and believe all that you want
Cause in the end I still won't care

I'm not the perfect daughter you want
But fine by me, I'm who I want
So don't think you know all of me
Because that is not happening.

YESS!!

2010-07-20T22:26:00.001+08:00

Finally!! Finally managed to fix my laptop to the printer..haha

I'm a genius.. Kidding..

Ah Lee helped me get the program..I just installed and switched the printer only..haha

Thanks yeah!

Cheers..

Media Farewell

2010-07-19T20:11:00.003+08:00

Date: 19.7.10
Day: Monday
Venue: Media Room

First, I have to say thank you so so so much to the Form 4 and 3 juniors. Haha.. I didn't think that our farewell would be so special..
Yes, it is special even though we couldn't really hear what you guys were saying about us.. Haha.. Never mind.. It's special as no one has ever used a video for the farewell..
But seriously, it was special cause it came from all of you guys' hearts. Thank you for your sweet words, thank you for your delicious cake, thank you for singing the farewell song to us (wow, that was really creative.. Thanks.. ;) ), and thank you so much for that beautiful booklet you made for us.. Really touched that you all put in so much effort.. Thank you..

Ermm.. Actually, part of me is sad and happy as well. Happy cause don't need to stay any more.. Haha.. But sad cause we can't duty with all of you any more.. It has become a routine for all of us to go up, work and play with you guys.. and suddenly, not being able to duty with you guys again makes me feel that something is missing..

To me, I had lots of fun with you guys.. Yeah we were a little noisy at times but who says we don't do work? Haha.. You guys are like my second family.. Many of my sweet memories were from media..

As you can see, I'm a little speechless.. Erm.. Just want to say thank you to all of you for making my years as a media girl great.. And thanks for the wonderful farewell.. In short, I just want to say thanks for the memories and hope we can still be friends and media after graduation..

Media ROCKZZ!!

Stubborn

2010-07-10T18:31:00.002+08:00

Why can't you just let me choose? What's so great about going overseas to study? Just because we can afford it doesn't mean that it's mandatory for me to go. I want to stay here. I've told you a thousand times and I'll tell you again: I'm not going to Melbourne, I'm staying here.

You say that I'f I go there I will be more mature, but that's not a must. I can learn plenty here. What can I learn from those 'ang mo lang'? Besides learning how to fuck and sleep around that is. I don't need that, thank you very much. I don't need to have my morals degraded by those filth just because they fuckin think they're better and stronger than us. I'd love to see you burn.

So I won't go, no matter what you say. Read my lips: I. Won't. Go.

Cheers..

Please be ok..

2010-06-29T19:59:00.002+08:00

Dear God, please watch over grandfather, please let him be safe and all right..

Please don't let him be in any dangerous situations.. Please let him be healthy soon..

Please don't take him away please?

I really hope you can listen.. I promise I'll pray more, just let him be all right..

3 Cheers for Poh..

2010-06-20T20:03:00.002+08:00

The last year of school is, I think the most emotional year for everyone.

Yes we're done with school, but what about our friends? About the dreams we all dreamed in school?

Outcast I may be, but I will miss my friends, because they were the ones who gave me chances to be their friend.

I will miss every single one of you..especially Poh, whom everyone will miss..

Poh, thank you for everything you've done..

Like the first bloom in spring,
You bring fresh colours to our lives.
Like the Northern Star in the night sky,
You light up our lives whenever in darkness.
Like the nightingale's sweet sweet song,
You gave us joy and sweetness when we need it.
Like the strong boulder that stands through wind and rain,
You gave us a place to lean onto when we loose our way.
Like the gentle moon in darkest nights,
You shined your light and led us through.
Like everything sweet and good and blessed in this world,
You are the BEST, BEST friend anyone could ever have.
Let not a soul utter slanderous words in thy ears,
Let not a soul trample on thy gentle heart,
Let not a soul say you but the best,
For those who do are idiots of the worst kind.
Thou art the angel of heavens above.
Thou art our friend, and shalt be so for eternity..

Thank you Poh..Love ya..^^

Cheers..

101th Post

2010-06-20T19:32:00.002+08:00

Finally reached post 101..

I've had a great time this holiday, but somehow I feel even more alienated..

What am I, an alien or something?

Why can't I fit in like everyone else?

I don't even ask to fit in..Just, can't I be accepted more into my group of friends? They're just a few people..Why can't I still fit in more?

Every time they talk and have fun, I just sit aside looking at them feeling like I'm an idiot. I know that most of it is my own fault for not joining them but..I don't even know what to say to them. Seriously, I don't think we're even on the same wavelength..

I have everything anyone could possibly want, and everything I want. So why can't I just fit in? Is it really too much to ask?

Cheers..

PPS Camp

2010-06-18T19:08:00.005+08:00

First..I'd like to say THANKS to all of the O.Cs, Facis and Form 5s..Not to mention the campers..Thanks to all of your capable leadership skills, the camp was a huge HUGE success..Congrats..
Again, I'd like to say thanks especially to Vivian, Brenda, Poh and Yit Yeng, Eva, Jo Ee, Xi Yee and well, actually all of the Form 4 O.Cs..Without you guys, I doubt the camp could even be carried out..
What can I say about the camp? It's indescribable.. Our juniors, even though we had to scold them throughout the 3 days..They didn't give up..They tried their best and really improved so much..They really treated their Guardian Angels as someone they can rely on and they really appreciate their group leaders, facis and G.As..
I'm especially proud of Cheah Sook Theng, Lee Ja Nice and Debbie Phoo. Sook Theng and Ja Nice were my group members last year and I was their faci. I was so exasperated then cause they were all so passive. But this camp, I saw a great and good change in them. Both were fantastic leaders and could lead everyone without any problem. Thank you, the both of you. Seeing the both of you grow into such great leaders is the best gift anyone could ever give me.
Debbie as well. I only knew her this year, but when I see her leading her team, I was so happy. I was happy cause she was a real true leader and I couldn't be more proud of her.
I'm also proud of my humans, Lim Yen Ni and Loh Sook Kuen. The first day when I observed them both, they were so silent and passive. I was a little worried. But then I saw I worried in vain. As activities went on, the both of them started to be more active. They were involved more, they motivated their team mates on. They didn't give up when seniors scolded them. So, thank you, for being such fantastic humans and I'm so so proud of you both.
I'm also proud of all the O.Cs. Eva, Xi Yee, Jo Ee, Brenda, Jia Wei, Janice, Vivian Wong, Chi Kay, Jun Yi, Carmenn, Kar Mun, Xiao Thong, Khei Yan, Nicole, Wai Teng, Chia Mei.. They handled the pressure of running the whole camp splendidly, and put in so much effort and time and energy to make the entire thing a success.. Thank you for that.. (Paiseh oh..didn't help you out much..hehe..^^|||)
Thank you my friends, O.Cs, facis, campers..Thank you for making my last PPS camp in SMJK Ave Maria Convent so memorable..I will never forget anyone of you..Not now, not ever..Thank you..

PPS FOREVER!!

Untitled Once More

2010-06-12T22:56:00.002+08:00

Ah..my faithful blog..Once, I wanted everyone to see my thoughts..yet now, I think it is better if no one ever read my thoughts..

Who would even care about the thoughts of some weird person anyway?

I always seem to be wallowing in self pity aren't I? Poor me, no one cares about me, poor me, no one cares about what I say; poor me, no one cares whether you live or die.

I'm sick of that. I should be stronger than that. Why should I care if anyone even cares about me or not? It doesn't matter anyway. No one will ever really understand me.

There I go again. Poor me, no one understands me.

Yeah right. You say you're strong, but are you? Or are you still that little girl who's afraid of everything? It's all right to be scared, but can't you stand up and ignore it for once?

So what if you feel lonely and think you don't have anyone in the world?

So what if you feel that you're worthless?

Sorry to disappoint buddy, the world ain't gonna wait for you while you sit there and cry.

So if you really are who you always say you are, then freaking stand up and ignore everything. If you really are as tough as you say, well then, prove it to me. Show me that you aren't a weakling who cries at everything.

Cheers..

Traitor..

2010-06-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

Right. Traitor. Harlot. Fake. Was a friend. Was a wife. Was a queen.

Beneath all those, she was just a traitor, not fit to be a queen.

He trusted her. The people trusted her. And she went off with the flower of the knights. Wow, Gwynevere, nice way to gain the trust of the people. Bravo.

She was sentenced to death by fire, but guess what, her lover, the pious, perfect, Sir Lancelot, came to her rescue. Pah! Hogwash..

And yet, after all her wrongdoings, he still forgave her.

HELLO?? IS THERE LIKE, ANYONE EVEN HOME?

Why the heck did you forgive her after she betrayed you? And please, you have to admit she was the reason why Camelot fell.

And yet you still forgive her.

Yeah, sure, you can forgive the queen who turned traitor, yet you couldn't even forgive someone who made a mistake.

Nice going Arthur, I feel really safe with you being King of Camelot. Real safe.

Cheers..

No. Way.

2010-06-07T10:18:00.002+08:00

Omg.. Rose did it with that jerk! Omg! She even thought that Dimitri doesn't love her anymore!

Just because he's guilty doesn't mean he doesn't love you you idiot! He just doesn't want to hurt you! What were you thinking betraying him like that? Omg! I sooo can't believe you!

Thanks for making my frigging day miserable! I am really sleep deprived right now, it's not even funny!

I woke at 6.30 and stared at the ceiling for 2 frigging hours then I find out that you went at it with him! I can't believe it!

What did make my day was watching bloopers for my fave hokkien tv series.. The Amazing Strategist Liu Bowen..
Technically it was the bloopers that made me lauh my ass off. I mean, my hokkien is totally lousy and even I know what they said was totally wrong! Lol!

Cheers..

Lyrics

2010-06-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

I've been competing with XWen about Jay's lyrics on FB till Alfie went crazy..
lol..I'll continue here..

免费教学录影带
杰倫：老闆
巨砲：年輕人又來看吉他啦
杰倫：哦我要那一把
巨砲：那一把　哈哈　那是琵琶　不是吉他
杰倫：我是說旁邊那一把
巨砲：旁邊那一把很貴的
杰倫：你可不可以自然一點

如果你想要變成一個Rocker
你就必須要先給一把Guitar
刷和旋的時候盡量不用Pick
看起來樣子會比較隨性
就算你彈錯了大家會以為你是故意

你是不是　啊哈感覺到了
我的和旋　啊哈都重複著
哎喲不錯　代表你耳朵沒有聾
Blues就是在重複著幾個和旋
搖滾的節奏在右手　靈魂在左手　心就是宇宙
我彈的叫自由　噠噠噠啦

＊
聽我的Blues　要學會尖叫
比利克Pikes　是為了拍照
有一款Eyes　叫大不要潮
陽光不是為了把美遮住是為了夢想
但美麗太強沒人愛上我沒辦法

啊　斷了
沒關係再買一把吉他
沒有錢就借別人的吧
怎麼會有人喜歡摔吉他
有種你就摔最貴的吉他
你要好好珍惜它它才會對你說話

收載的如果家有電線
再加點不穩當彈簧沒了
就請你的單純給他個蹦
這時候你可以放她個蹦
哦哦美女在哪裡就要看到那裡
你一定以為我接下來要
不急我先教你彈
再下一個再下一個最後對一個

Repeat＊

再來一次哦
如果你加幾個音就變鄉村風味
大家提酒冷多音更想喝牛奶
別在更冒昧我不妨擠牛奶
不過不要被人自己攤上擠牛奶
因為零時要在路邊扎攤一頭牛擠的奶
啦啦啦啦啦

聽我的Blues　要學會尖叫
比利克Pikes　是為了拍照
有一款Eyes　叫大不要潮
陽光不是為了把美遮住是為了夢想
但美麗太強沒但美麗太強沒被人愛上我沒辦法
再彈一次最後一次在不一次Rocker被人愛上

OMG!!!!

2010-06-06T21:16:00.002+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen, it gives me the utmost honour and pleasure to announce to all of you that...

Dimitri Belikove the DHAMPIR is like totally back!!

Oh my freaking god!!!

My heart was like totally pounding inside my rib cage as I scrolled down the e-book in my handphone.. My thumb was getting sore..

There were a few passages hinting at his return but I wanted to be sure..

I scrolled down to nearly the last paragraphs and voila!!!

Dimitri is so totally rocking Vampire Academy once more baby!!

Go Dimitri, Yes Dimitri

Die Ivashkov, Sic Ivashkov

You're the man Belikov!!

Wohoo!!!

Salvation from the slimy womanizing hands of Adrian Ivashkov!!!

Thank you thank you!!!

Adrian go to HELL!!!!

Arghh!!!!!!!!!

Cheers..

P.S: To Yuan Gee

Maybe you can't read this, but I just wanted to let you know the ending of Spirit Bound, the book we've been waiting for so long..

I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise to you that you WILL read this book, so this is the least I can do.

Dimitri Belikov who was turned into Strigoi in Shadow Kiss, you know the purple cover book? has now been turned back into a dhampir..I will write more once I've really finsihed the book..Cheers my friend..Cheers..

Sushi King...

2010-06-06T10:47:00.003+08:00

Went to Sushi King with Amy and M & M on Friday..Last day of school..Ah, the fresh scent of freedom..

Went by car..Sorry, I am NOT walking over there..I hate traffic..

Ordered our food, then the both of them just latched their fingers onto my iTouch and hand phone, said they were obsessed with on-lining..So they just sat there and competed with each other who types the fastest, yadda yadda yadda.

We had to wait for like, half and hour to 45 minutes before the sushi even managed to place their lead-lined feet on our table. Well, technically, it's the waiters who are slow...

The food was not bad, satisfying.. We wanted to order ice cream, but they said it was sold out..

Then Amy saw two ice creams on the rotating belt. We asked one waitress whether it was ok to just take it off the belt. She looked at us like we were insane.. Oh well..

Overall, it was fun...So, thanks Amy and Zhi Yuen for eating there..

Cheers..

Destiny..

2010-06-05T23:09:00.002+08:00

Destiny is over rated. Sorry, but true.

Yeah, some things may be set in stone, but not everything is so.

Do you love someone just because you're fated to be with them?

Do you let someone you really love go just because you were 'fated' to be with another? That it is your destiny?

Do you let yourself just go, and become someone else because you were fated to do so?

Do you become evil just because some stupid prophecy said so?

Or do you fight it, not caring what the hell destiny or fate wants for you, just caring about what you yourself want?

You either choose to do it or not, no other choice.

You either choose to let your life be controlled or you make your own life.

So, actually, while I sound so angry up there, it all boils down to ...

Right, the TV series Merlin.

I have asked myself this question over and over again.

How the HELL did a maidservant get together with a prince?

Did protocol and social hierarchy just change without me knowing it?

Hello?! You're a frigging prince, not a douchebag.

Ok, technically, you are, but that's not the issue.

The frigging issue, my dear Prince Arthur, is that you're a frigging idiot if you chose that..that..THING. Hey, Arthur may be a historical figure I think of like a hero, but the one I like is the King, and he sure ain't an idiot.

So either you choose to be an idiot, or you choose the smart thing and frigging go after Morgana. And you frigging dragon, just cause you make frigging prophecies, doesn't mean they're going to come true. Kapisch?

Idiots..I'm surrounded by frigging idiots..Good lord..Where have all sane people went?

Cheers..

I Hate You

2010-06-03T18:33:00.001+08:00

I hate you
You hate me
I hate you more than you hate me
With a great big kick to your ass you little bitch
Won't you say I hate you too

P.S : I hate you GWEN!!!!!!!!!!!!

跨时代

2010-05-21T18:55:00.002+08:00

I bought it!! I finally bought it!!

JAY CHOU'S 10th STUDIO ALBUM!!!

Thanks mummy for buying it for me..even though it was RM90..XD..

Erm.. a little different from his original sound..but what the heck..

IT'S BRILLIANT!!

By the way..he's a vampire on this album..and he looks white and pasty..kinda like Robert Pattinson..Creepy..

2010-04-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

Great.

I broke the stupid cup..

All because of 'dear' little Gwen.

I hate you.

You made my day so freaking miserable..

Ass head..

HATEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2010-03-31T19:50:00.000+08:00

I. Hate. You. Guinevere.

Ihateyouihateyouihateyou!!!!!!!

I want Morgana and Arthur!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want Katie and Bradley!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I do NOT want Guinevere and Arthur!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IHATEYOUIHATEYOUIAHTEYOU!!!!!!!!!!

I've hated you for 10 years!!!!!!!!!!!!

Remember..

2010-03-03T19:56:00.002+08:00

Today was Yuan Gee's funeral, and I cried a lot; we all did. I guess in the end, we all couldn't face the fact that we would never see her again, that we won't ever be able to go out with her again, to have fun like teenagers do. She won't be able to do so many things anymore. Won't be able to watch New Moon which she was so excited about, won't be able to read to Spirit Bound, won't be able to listen to Jay Chou's new album, never listen to her iPod again, never watch a new movie, never hang out with us at Jusco, never celebrate Chinese New Year, Christmas or her birthday, never wear any new clothes, never learn to drive a car, never learn to love or be loved, never start her own family, never to complete her studies as she so dearly wished to, and most importantly never again be a daughter to her parents, a sister to her sisters and a best friend to all of us.

When I saw her enter the chamber, I couldn't help but cry, I wasn't ever going to see her again. But then, I saw her picture, I think it was taken in China. She looked so happy, so vibrant, so full of life and so beautiful it made my heart ache. I saw her smile, her beautiful smile that could always light up our days.

I smiled too. She wouldn't want us to be sad; we should let her go, she won't have to be in pain anymore. She's gone home.

So Yuan Gee, I promise you, I couldn't fulfil so many of your wishes and let you down, but this I promise you, I will always smile whenever I think of you, and your smile. I love you my friend, we all do. Please rest peacefully knowing you are loved now and forever. I still have your email, the one you sent to me after leaving for Singapore. You said that we'd be best friends forever remember? I hope you'll always remember us and your promise. I will never forget you Yuan Gee, we'll always be best friends forever and ever. I'm blessed God gave me the chance to be your friend and will treasure you forever.

One day, I will remember you, and I will always smile..

Farewell

2010-02-28T21:11:00.003+08:00

The brightest star that shines is the star that burns the fastest as well..

Our shining star has faded away, her light gone..

But it is not gone forever. Love never dies, as well as friendship and her soul..

We will forever remember her not just as a brilliant student, but as our dear, dear friend.

My only regret is that I was not able to say goodbye.

But this isn't goodbye, just a farewell..

We will meet again someday, and we will relive our happy times once more..

Yuan Gee, we love and miss you so very much, may you shine like the star you are in the heavens above with God by your side..

Love, your friends and comrades..

...

2010-02-17T10:03:00.002+08:00

Speechless..I've recently noticed a few things..that for some reason has to be linked to Resident Evil..

1. Yeah, the waiter who looked like Leon..
2. I get angry everytime I see Angelina Jolie
3. I'm mad because Ada Wong used my, MY surname
4. My parents have friends called Barry and Steven (close to Steve)..Next thing you know, they'll be telling me they have friends called Claire, Leon,, Jill, Chris, Rebecca, Billy, Carlos or even Ada...Brr...

Weird...I was like..WTF, you've got to be joking me.. Another sign of obsession of RE..

Cheers..

Reunion Dinner and CNY

2010-02-16T16:32:00.002+08:00

MM..lazy to post something about this so I'll say a few words about it now..

Sorry to say that reunion dinner at KL was as lousy as ever, but thanks to Poh it wasn't that bad..There was this waiter who had Leon's hairstyle and I texted Poh..

S : Hey Poh, got one waiter that has Leon's haircut, his face also like him, no expression one..

Poh : haha, go flirt with him la..

S : Crazy ah you..My parents will kill me.. Want me to get his number for you?

Poh : Don't need la..

S : Not bad la him..But not much muscles..

Poh : Don't want ah...I like guys with muscles like Leon

S : So bad ah you..But you're right..Leon's the best la..

Poh : Haha..My yan guang very good leh..

Then I went on eating, went to the bathroom but I was actually calling Poh inside..
Then I came out, ate again..Then texted her again..

S : Haha..poor 'Leon' now 'bat lat mei fun' for all of us ah..

Poh : You go help him bat la..

Lol..I tried to take his photo but everytime someone would definitely block my view..
Finally when it was over, the guy was standing at the door ushering everyone out.. So when I went out I turned towards him and...

And looked at his nametag.. What la you all.. Think I kiss him ah har? Crazy..Do you think I would really do that? XD

Then I texed Poh..again..

S : Sorry la poh, his name is not Leon. but Oscar.. Dou ok ge la..

Poh : ...

So that was reunion dinner..

On CNY, Poh, Sook Peng, their sisters and YI Lin came to my house..Poh wore a halter neck dress..YOu know, the type that comes off when you pull the ribbon..lol..SP wore a tiger T-shirt..Nice..I won't tell you what I wore..
Poh and her sis were the first to come and I ranted on and on and on about Angela the whole time they were eating..Poh was starting to regret that she had introduced this movie to me..lol..She fears for my sanity..
SP and her sis brought some goodies for me..Thanks guys! The first thing SP did when she came into my room was to get my teddy bear (mind you, It's huge) and plopped down on the floor and slept..I woke her up by stuffing a stuffed dog onto her face..lol..
We had fun...But I don't think I was that good of a 'hostess'..Sorry guys..Thanks also to Poh's mum who gave me an ang pow..Thanks!

So this is this year's rather eccentric reunion dinner and CNY centered around Resident Evil..See ya..

Cheers..

Angela The Ugly

2010-02-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

In english
Angela: So? You are gonna have a date with me, Leon?
Leon: No!!
Angela: Piece of Shi...
Claire: It was obvious that Leon would not accept
Angela: what did you say?
Angela: nvm, it doesnt matter
Claire: Well, its not our fault that Capcom has made Angela's so fuckin ugly

Angela The stupid

2010-02-15T18:46:00.002+08:00

In english:
Claire: Leon, get away from that bitch. She only want to have a date with you. Don't fall in her game.
Leon: I know, don't worry.
Claire: seriously, she's gonna break our relationship.
Angela: ???
Leon: Calm down, ok? I know what Im doing.
Angela: Who was the person on the phone?
Leon: Ehm... my mom.
Angela: I don't believe u. It was Claire, right? I hate that woman
Leon: Whatever, Angela.

Happy Chinese New Year

2010-02-14T15:15:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year guys! Hope you all have a great new year and get lots of ang pows...

Thanks to Poh, Sook Peng, Yi Lin and their sisters for coming to my home...and to celebrate CNY with me..Thanks you guys..

Cheers..

ANGELA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-12T23:03:00.002+08:00

ANGELA!!!! Got to HELL will you???

Get out of Claire and Leon's way will you??? You are so blocking my plan!!!!!!! Bimbo...Too bad you're not blonde..

Anyway, Resident Evil: Darkside Chronicles is 2 words. FREAKING. SCARY. HOLY. MAMA.

Ok, maybe it's 4 words, but what the heck..Thank goodness there's Leon to accompany Claire...Or maybe the player... The walk through itself was scary enough..I don't really want to know what the real game's like..Jeepers...

Mmm....I hate
1. ADA WONG (How DARE you use my SURNAME you BIMBO!!!)
2. ANGELA MILLER (Bimbo, slut...Idiot, amateur, mediocre officer...I hate you..)
3. Steve whats-his-name-the-guy-who-likes-Claire (Lame-o..)

That's all for today I guess..
Cheers...

Resident Evil Degeneration

2010-02-10T18:06:00.002+08:00

Yeah, thanks to Poh and Alfred, I'm watching Resident Evil Degeneration right now, secretly of course..
anyway..I've been thinking about a few things..
1. Claire and Leon
Poh told me Leon likes Angela, another character...Uh..then if the creators want Leon to be with Angela, why the heck are all the posters are printed with just Leon and Claire? Doesn't that mean they'd be the main 'couple' in the movie??

2. Angela
Ok, I've not finished the film yet..But why is Angela even in it? I've read the summary, and from what I can read, Angela is well, useless, to be polite.. Every time I see the name 'Angela', there would always be the phrase 'saved by Leon'. OK, maybe she's inexperienced. Then why is she out in the field? I mean, she must be at least the same age as Claire, and yet, Claire seems to be more capable. I don't ever see Claire and the word 'saved' associated with her..So why is Angela that mediocre??

3. CPR
If someone drowns in the water, you drag them up and give them CPR. From what I heard, Leon saved Angela from drowning by giving her mouth-to-mouth.. In the water..See something wrong there? You're trying to give her more oxygen..If you give her MTM under water, doesn't that mean you're getting more water into her as well???

Well..correct me if I'm wrong about the facts above..Like I said, i haven't finished the movie..Just wrote a few thoughts of mine..

Cheers..

Sorry!!

2010-02-02T20:02:00.001+08:00

Guys, sorry I never updated in such a long time.. Cause the truth is I'm really busy and I don't really have anything to write about..I'll probably just add a small post during CNY, but for now, this blog is asleep!

Thanks!

Cheers..

Merry Christmas..

2009-12-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, like I said, I'll be leaving tomorrow, so I'll just greet you guys first...I know it's early, but, again like I said before, I'll only be back when school reopens...

So..Merry Christmas guys! Oh, and a Happy New Year as well....Hmm.....Well...Have a great holiday and I hope you all will have a nice Christmas...

Ja ne...

Cheers...

P.S: Senpai, thanks again for the card..You know who you are...Kyuu...Lmao...
P.S.2: I forgot, this little creature here (name's With/Wiz from D.N. Angel) is soooo freaking cute!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

2009-12-21T17:16:00.002+08:00

Friggin hell!!! I have to wear a freaking DRESS!!!!!!!!!!!

Going on a cruise is meant to be F.U.N... Don't those people know what the meaning of FUN is? It means NO dressing up, NO posh stuff, NO eating with 3 forks and 2 knives AND 2 spoons, and NO formal nights!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why? Why me? WHY???????????????????????????????

Cheers..

Trip...

2009-12-21T16:41:00.002+08:00

UWAH!!!!!!!!!! I'm leaving on Tuesday and coming back on 4TH OF JANUARY!!!! I'M GOING TO MISS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!

Nani...=="

Ah well....I'll see you guys when I come back...I might be able to buy something back if it's possible...so yeah...

Poh, please help me with the favour I asked you...and also pretty please remind Pn Norizan to tell the new form teacher why I'm absent...

Arigatou sempai!!

Cheers...

DAARK!!!

2009-12-17T17:54:00.002+08:00

Oh gods...So sad..The ending of D.N. Angel..

Oh come on, you guys cry over Korean movies, I am entitled to a little sob fest of mine over an anime right?

Dark's gone... He said to Daisuke...

'Daisuke, don't forget..
I exist inside of you..'

'Dark..'
'I'll never forget you..'

Waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you..

2009-12-17T10:02:00.002+08:00

I just wanted to say thank you to my friends who have stood by me and cheered me up when I was feeling down..especially with my rather depressing few posts these days..Thank you Poh, XWen and Amy for your kind comments...^^ Doesn't mean my other friends don't stand by me..Just that they commented on it and I thank them for it..Love all of you..XP..Thank you..

Cheers..

Depression..

2009-12-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

Having another bout of depression..Things are changing, and I am not liking them..

Next year my brother is leaving for college in Australia, my nanny, who's like my best friend at home sometimes, is leaving later in the morning. And my parents will be busy in KL next year, leaving me here.

I admit, I'm scared. I'm afraid of being lonely. When my brother was here, I could fool around with him. It was easy with him around because I suppose we're closer than twins even..We don't have to speak to know what we're going to say. He knows what I like and I know what he likes. He teases me sometimes but he's concerned..I'll miss that.

All of these are just starting to make sense in my mind and truth to be told, it's all going to burst. I'm going to go insane one day, with all the fear locked inside of me. I can't let my parents know, I don't want them to worry. I just hope by the time I go insane, my life would have been good.

Cheers..

Growing up..

2009-12-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hmm..two posts in a day..I must be getting a lot of ideas...From somewhere..

Growing up..Something teenagers tend to think about at this age..Or, so I think..

Growing up doesn't just mean going to college, then university and getting a job then settling down. The above does play a large part in that, but to me, growing up means you understand.

You understand you are no longer a child with your parents to protect you, that you can no longer count on your parents to take care of you. You understand that life isn't easy, and never is fair. You understand that human lives are dispensable and that anytime, anyone can die. You understand that you just have to get used to the fact that you can't kid yourself into thinking that when someone dies, they are gone, and not asleep.

You understand it's time to toughen up, to accept everything from failure to heart-break and just get up again.

I..do not want to grow up. Yes, childish isn't it? I mean, there's no Neverland and no Peter Pan to take me to a place where I'll never grow old. It's just, when you grow up, and the years pass by, people you love and care for fade away. I love my parents, my brother and my relatives, but one day they'll all be gone. I suppose I'm afraid I'll be lonely. I am anti-social, sort of and yet I need to have people around me.

When it's night and everyone's asleep, I think of the future when my family is gone. What is my purpose in life then? I know this sounds stupid but, to me, I only have a sole purpose in life. And that is to protect my family. When they are gone, why should I continue living?

It's against my religion o commit suicide, but..If I lost the will to live, would that count as suicide? If I accidentally took more sleeping pills than prescribed and never woke up, would that count as suicide?

My thoughts are dark, and even more darker they will get. I hope, that there will be salvation, true salvation. Huh, after all, what is dark may not necessarily be bad and what is light may not always be good.

Cheers..

Ramblings and Whatnot..

2009-12-13T10:41:00.002+08:00

I've been in a rather..philosophical mood lately..Perhaps it is due to the fact that I have been rereading Artemis Fowl and some of his analysis of well, almost everything, has made me more aware of some issues. I have been thinking about them for quite some time now.
The thing is, I have never thought of these issues for, let's just say a very long time. I wonder, am I loosing my touch? Or is my more human side resurfacing?
Listen to me ramble, I doubt anyone of you would know exactly what I am insinuating here. And frankly, I intend to keep it that way.

Enough of that, I will now move on to other subjects. I have decided to take up a degree on psychology and biotechnology. Strange combination, I must admit, but I am very interested in the mind of humans. Imagine studying how human minds work and one day perhaps finding out and restoring some archaic ability that we have long since forgotten. It also gives me great satisfaction to be able to read humans like an open book. Of course, I am already a walking lie-detector right now, (instinct, my friends) but I think that with some research, studying and refining I would be able to read humans better.

Now, biotechnology. I suppose I am rather influenced to research how exactly are we able to help solve environmental problems, and one of the most important issues to me, animal extinction. I suppose I would like to save the precious few animals that are going extinct. No thanks to the idiocies and hypocrisy, not to mention vanity and stupidity of the human race that by consuming parts of animals, say the paw of the bear, we can obtain great health and extremely good and strong immune system! Now I think that is, simply put, hogwash, bullshit, absolute nonsense and balderash. Think, if in the future there were another far more superior species than Homo Sapiens, and they say,'By consuming the hands of humans we will be strong and invulnerable.' Think of that and you will understand how absolutely tosh it is to kill off an entire species of animals.

Well now, I suppose that I have ranted long enough now. Mayhap might find something to talk about next time.

Cheers..

Lazy..

2009-12-02T11:10:00.004+08:00

I'm so lazy to update because frankly, there is nothing to upload of...

Ти не удна. Пуомний, Я всегда рядом.
You are not along. Remember, I'm always next to you.

Мая красавитса
My beauty...

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday

They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday

~Yesterday, Leona Lewis~

Ah hell..

2009-12-01T16:03:00.001+08:00

Just as the freaking title implies..

Hell.

My eye is throbbing, my head is pounding, my temper's on the rise and my stupid nose is acting up again.

Chto za huey?!

Ah screw it..

Tarot Cards

2009-11-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I know.. Some people think it's just a bunch of superstitious crap, others like my parents think it's well..bad and..not good...

Anyway, I've always been quite fascinated with tarot cards because I feel that they hold much power. Of course, I believe that you have to have the gift to read the cards, but seeing as I clearly don't have the gift, I'm just fooling around with my own deck.

Let's see, tarot cards consist of Major and Minor Arcana. The number of Major Arcana varies with different decks. For the more simpler ones they have only the main ones such as The Fool, The Emperor and Empress, The Magician, The Priestess, The Hierophant, The Wheel of The World, Death, The Hanging Man, The Sun and a few more. The Minor Arcana is categorized into four, that is Cups, Wands or Rods, Swords and Pentacles. They are then subdivided into aces, Twos to Tens, then the Court Cards, such as Page, Queen, Knight and King. Cups, Wands, Swords and Pentacles each symbolize a different element, Water, Fire, Earth or Air and therefore symbolizes different things, for example Cups represents Water, which in turn symbolizes emotions.

People fear the Wheel of The World the most, because when this card is drawn, it means change is coming, whether good or bad we don't know. The Wheel is always turning, our fortunes turn with it.

People also fear the Death card, which usually has a skeleton as it's main feature. But the Death card does not necessarily mean death itself. It usually means new beginnings, and end of bad things. Rarely does it mean death.

The card I fear or dislike the most is the Eight of Swords. For most decks, I think the card shows a blind-folded woman who is surrounded by a wall of eight swords, hence the name. It means that the person is deliberately blinding him or herself from knowledge. The means are there, but they won't acknowledge it. It also means ignorance.

Before my parents forbid me from using the cards, I usually used the Daily Spread, which only requires three cards which represents the Past, Present and Future. Less complicated, easy for me to use and I understand it more. I do use another spread which I only use when I have questions to ask. But most of the time they tell me things I already know, or think I already know..So yeah..Like I said, I don't have the gift...

Of course, there are a lot of different spreads, one of the most common is the Celtic Cross Spread. But then, the more specific questions need to be asked, the more difficult it is, and more complicated..

Ok...so that's it..cheers...

VA AUGMENTED REALITY

2009-11-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

Ok, so this company, Ogmento and another company, Magitech (forgive me if I'm wrong), came up with this totally cool thing called augmented reality for VA.
So basically, you snap a photo of yourself using your webcam, then raise you VA book cover to the webcam, then your face is totally on the cover of VA!

ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO FREAKING COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll post the link...OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1wPO-iymPUQ&feature=player_embedded

Go there or

http://us.penguingroup.com/static/packages/us/yreaders/vampireacademy/index.html

I don;t care if you're fans or not...YOU MUST WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Illusions and Disillusions..

2009-11-24T20:35:00.002+08:00

A little depressed these few days..Especially today..But...
Don't worry, I'm not going to cut myself or do something stupid.
I realize now that life is immaterial. People you love can always leave anytime.

Even the people you thought were the strongest and could never falter.

'People are people and sometimes we change our minds..'
Breath, Taylor Swift

People are still people, no matter how strong or powerful they are. No matter how much they seemed like a hero to you, your personal Superman. When the time comes, they will leave. And the only thing to do is grieve.

I never let anyone see my grief. I can't. I didn't cry at the past two funerals. But I did cry when I got the news. I was shocked, I didn't think he'd leave that soon.

I didn't think he'd leave at all.

I get attached too emotionally. I remember seeing a mail someone forwarded to me. It said : 'People who are the toughest are actually the softest at heart. People who look to protect people want to be protected themselves.' And they're right.

I've grown a sort of shield around me. I don't let anyone see my pain. I try to take away their pain, in the end adding to my own pain, even though it is irrelevant.

I've tried to let go..Can't..I'm starting to loose hope, to want to open Pandora's box and let go of Hope. I want to let go, I just want to lie and rest...

Love him...

2009-11-24T20:11:00.002+08:00

He'll never hold you like the way he did before
He'll never whisper your name in your ear again
What would you give to have him right next to you
You love him, but this is goodbye

You'll never have another like him again
He understood you more than anyone ever could
I know that he's gone
But will you give your heart to another

He'd want to see you live
He'd want you to be happy
He'd want to see you remember him
His scent his eyes his Zen life lessons
He'd always be there with you

His spirit lingers on and on
He'll never leave you like he promised you ago
You won't see him, he won't let you
He would want you to move on

He'll be waiting when it's all over
They say that you'll meet five people in heaven
And I think I can say he'll be the first that you see
The first the last, he'll always be there
Love him forever, it was meant to be..

So sad..so so sad..Tears fall as I write the story of them...
Cheers..

Spirit..VA

2009-11-22T22:08:00.003+08:00

Why do I have to feel the pain
Pain I take away
Pain that never was mine
I see now that I am the Marked of the Ones
Yet know my soul is weary and burdened
And Hope she lives but wavers still
The clock is ticking
The sands of Time pouring
Falling into the never ending abyss where Shadows lie
And souls are screaming
Salvation they ask, shattered souls
And yet I cannot grant what is needed
The heart that is broken cannot be mended
As two halves of a whole cannot be reunited
As the living live, while the dead wander
And the undead walk, and hunt and kill
No guardian shall guard
What is to be and what will be
I know the evil in the soul
Old, ancient, power beyond that imagined
And yet, but wait
Human lingers
His soul is not dark-ridden as others have been
Could love be stronger than stone and fate?
Could the broken and shattered be mended by faith?
I see two paths, and three and none
I see the Sisters Three of Fate
I see the thread of life that hangs
In limbo between life and death
And spirit will infuse and heal what is dead
For the undead have no souls
And shall be healed
The lovers two will embrace once more
The decree that has been set in Destiny
The decree that I have seen and obey.

Lol..I was writing something random and it suddenly turned into something about VA..Read and you will know what I mean if you have read the books..Ask Yi Wen if you like..^^
Cheers

Oooo...

2009-11-21T16:40:00.002+08:00

Sheesh, my brother bought the new Galaxie, and he picked the 'Team Edward' one cause he really didn't like Jacob Black..Weird for someone who says he likes werewolves more than vampires..Oh well.. Shrugs...

Anyway, anyone seen Dakota Fanning yet? Brrrr..she looks creepy...and those red eyes...She'd make a perfect Strigoi...Scary..And she's only 14...O.O

Take a look...

Cheers..

VA vs Twilight

2009-11-21T11:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah..Actually, I don't hate Twilight, but.... Well, here I dissect why I dislike Twilight..

Yes, I know, I've never read or watched Twilight, so to be fair, I can't really criticize it...

But from what I heard from friends, it's the usual boy meets girl, girl meets boy, they both fall in love, BOOM, happy ending..

Whereas Vampire Academy, well, there isn't any happy ending, at least, for now..
But seriously, Rose and Dimitri are both dhampirs, its illegal and they can't conceive any children.

That was when Dimitri was a dhampir. Now, he's a strigoi, the immortal and evil vampires. And Rose has to kill him because, let's face it, there isn't a way to cure Strigoi. Weel, there maybe one, but the cure has to be retrieved from Robert Doru, half brother of Victor Dashkov. The same vVictor who kidnapped and tortured Lissa Dragomir, Rose's best friend. So, yeah..
How can you have a heppy ending when you have to kill the guy you love? Your soul mate?

So no offense to Twilight and its fans, but to me , Twilight and the story is sort of light-weight and not really as dark as VA could get sometimes...

Cheers..

OMG!!!

2009-11-20T12:45:00.002+08:00

OMG, Vampire Academy is slated to be THE next Twilight..Not that I watch or read Twilight, mind you, but it is rather popular right now..

VA IS TOTALLY GAINING POPULARITY AND FREAKING FAME!!!!!!!!!!
Proof:

Wohoo!!!!!!!!

1. Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead

Article - Donnelly Next Twilight - Vampire Academy Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead. 336 pages. Razorbill. $8.99 Richelle Mead’s Vampire Academy is the obvious heir to the Twilight throne. Twilight critics who found heroine Bella’s personality to be on the weak side will find their antidote in Rose, the feisty, snarky, headstrong lead in this six-book series. As a Dhampir, a half-mortal/half-vampire warrior, Rose is sworn to protect the Moroi—mortal vampires who walk in the sun, feed without killing, and grow old and die—from the Strigoi, vampires of the traditional immortal-killing-machine variety. When Twilight was starting to heat up a few years ago, Razorbill editor Jessica Rothenberg went on the hunt for a new series with bite. “We went ahead and we read everything out there, and we felt like this was the best-written vampire series that we’d seen. We just felt like it was the perfect thing to be the next big thing, when Twilight was done. We wanted this to be the series teens are reaching for,” Rothenberg says. Sure enough, there are plenty of elements that make this series methadone for those in Twilight withdrawal, from Rose’s forbidden (and steamy!) romance with her mentor Dimitri to epic brawls with the baddie vamps. Readers are responding to the series with gusto—Vampire Academy has spent 15 weeks so far on The New York Times children’s series list, recently hitting as high as No. 2, just under Twilight. The fifth book in the series, Spirit Bound, is due out in May 2010, and the sixth and final book is slated for fall 2010. A six-book spinoff series will start in fall 2011.

Source: http://www.thedailybeast.com/blogs-and-stories/2009-11-19/the-next-twilight-1/?cid=topic:mainpromo1

Ah! VA! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Adrian, FUCK OFF AWAY FROM ROSE!!!!

P.S: DIMKA!!! COME BACK TO BE WITH ROOOSEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Cheers...

Hate..

2009-11-19T17:33:00.002+08:00

Poshyol ty you cat-insane woman! Grrr...hate you so much...

Ok, you ask us to do project..What-freaking-ever fine...

You want to know the freaking measurements, fine...Why? You want to make the project into shirts for you ah? Huh? I don't think you can fit in, so sorry to tell you that..

Do you have Alzheimer's? You told us to use hand to write..then you say : "You're all 21st century people, so show me some freaking 21st century work!" Wei lah, mak cik..you think people in 21st century don't use pencil or pen to write ah? Huh? You want us to write in the sky ah? I didn't know there is sky touch screen one wor..you guys know that ah?

Then when people finish and pass up to you, just freaking accept it lah! Appreciate that we as the students decide to give you face and slave over the project to give it to you..

If people do wrong, fine! Just tell them that they're wrong! Mind you, when I said 'tell them', I don't mean standing in front of the class and yell at them! You're the teacher, so teach! Don't yell! If you yell, we won't freaking listen! Sheesh...

I don't even know why you want us to do it so beautifully.. What, you want to show off to others and say, :" You see? My students do one ah.. I'm such a good teacher ah!" Fuck! That doesn't even make sense!

You say you want us to 'keep clean' your freaking reputation. Well get this, whether or not we do well in exams DOES NOT affect your reputation..Your reputation has already been made since you started teaching. If you really were a good teacher, your reputation as a good teacher won't fade. If we don't do well in exams, that's our own problem! The main thing is that you DID teach, regardless of whether we did listen or not..

So, guys, cheer up, especially you Poh, I know you're really tired with pps and this project..But chin up ok?

Cheers..

2012

2009-11-16T19:56:00.005+08:00

Oh my freaking God!!! 2012 is so freaking cool!!

But seriously, it had what I thought was a happy ending..

I mean, when I think of the end of the world, I think that the earth blows up and everyone dies, but quite a lot of people survived..Of course, they had to give 1 billion euros to survive on the craft so.. But come on, they were freaking trillionaires, 1 billion euros is probably like a speck of dust..sheesh..

Vivian..don't be so freaking stuborn.. Sasha the pilot really looks a lot better than your Lee Teuk..Even my brother agrees..Stop being so bullish and admit it lah..haha..

I'll post pictures later..So lazy these days..Hz..cheers..

See guys? This is Sasha, the pilot I was talking about..Really, I know you guys are fans of Super Junior, but come on, you have to admit he at least looks more like a man than Lee Teuk right? Anyway, buh- bye..

BTW, Sasha is the Russian nickname for Alexander, so before you go off making jokes about his name, I'm telling you his real name..До свидания..Bye bye

Doom...

2009-11-12T12:51:00.002+08:00

Should I worry about being an alcoholic? Maybe, a little..

These days the little bottle of Shandy is seemingly becoming my best friend. Yeah, Shandy is an extremely weak alcoholic drink, and everyone should be able to stomach it..Still..

I guess one of the reasons why I turn to it is that it feels numbing. It numbs my feelings and thoughts for the moment and I need that. Though not as badly as Ivashkov needs it..

Anyway, let's just say it helps me from spiraling deeper into that infinite pit of darkness..

Cheers..

Thanks!!!

2009-11-11T19:47:00.002+08:00

I almost forgot.. A very very BIIIGGGG thank you to Poh, Alfred, Yi Lin and Loh Peng for giving me a box of Hershey's Kisses!! Dark Chocolate Kisses and Strawberry Filling!!!

Thank you guys soooo much..I really appreciate your gift..I'm so touch..* starts to cry..

Again, Thank you!!! You're the best friends anyone could ever have..

A lousy picture I took of the chocos..I dunno..my hand seems to be shaking..Oh well..

Urgh...

2009-11-11T16:49:00.002+08:00

Exactly what the title says..I feel like freaking crap these days..Too lazy to update my blog..Too lazy to on the computer..Too lazy to practice the piano..Whatever..

Not to mention getting a liiitttlee depressed whenever I think about VA and anything to do with it..Lets see, that includes, Russia, my freaking Russian dictionary, a couple that reminds me of Rose and Dimitri, a song that reminds me of them, a story..Well actually, everything..

I know, I know, I'm obsessing over a book and getting unnecessarily upset but..Again, whatever..

Sorry, had to get that out..So sad..so so sad...

Birthday..

2009-11-04T16:30:00.002+08:00

Guys I know, sorry I didn't come to school on my birthday...I fell sick..~sobs~

Anyway, thanks for all of your wishes and, I know I never said this but I LOVE you guys!

4S5 ROCKSSSSSSSSSSS!

Спасибо Четыре СПять! (Thank you 4S5!)

Buria..

2009-11-01T16:00:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time
A child there hath been
So bright so calm so innocently fresh
She was a shining star
A star she be burning so brightly
And love she did with passion
Her life was good, was gold was sheltered
She knew not life one bit
But then one day
A pit hath opened
And fell in did she go
A dark deep pit, no help will she get
The child was lost forever
Emerged from the pit a new being did
'Twasn't her at all
A dark being it was, with a heart of stone
Stood there in her stead
The shadow lived the girl's life long
But yet resurface she did
But what use it was to stand there still
When the reins were denied to her
Oh the pain she felt, she knew she learnt
As she lived through the shadow of her
Ah but grateful she be to the being that was her
For she had not the strength to stand
The shadow taught her many things
Of death of life and pain
But as days pass and the bond grew stronger
The shadow started to fade
The shadow that was once her protector
Is leaving her alone
And whence she had the shield of the shadow
Now she must stand alone
The pain she felt when the shadow was there
Returned ten-fold, nothing could be done
All she could do, was stand and hope
Because hope, is all she has left..

Tebe Pizdets Sooka..

2009-10-31T18:41:00.002+08:00

That's right..You are so fucking fucked if I find out who the fucking bitch you are..

The hell you think you're doing huh? You get a kick out of fucking up everyone? Is that it? You like to see our fucking asses get fucking burnt?

That's not all. The fucking little girl had to go fucking complaining to her mother about something that does not fucking concern her fucking mind.

If you're not even in our class, what the fuck do you care about how we use the god-damned money huh? Are you god-damned jealous? If so, then come and freaking tell us to our freaking faces you two faced, whore bitch.

If you are from our class, I will make sure your life will be a fucking, living hell as long as you're in this class.

Bitch out about anything to anyone, you see me giving me a damn? But try to bitch me out for something I didn't do and for pulling my name through the fucking slums, and you're so dead you slut.

Fuck off and don't even think of fucking coming back. You've crossed the line, sooka. And now you're gonna fucking pay.

Continue..

2009-10-30T16:44:00.003+08:00

I know, the beginning is confusing cause I haven't really got to the point..Anyway, I'll continue but the point of the story is sort of..in the middle..you'll see..

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I shrugged, then uncoiled myself from my seat and walked to the front. As I passed rows of students, a voice grunted out, "Busted." I didn't have to turn around to know who it was. Corey Steins. class bully, dim-wit and God's gift to women. Or so he says.

"In your dreams *mudak.." Rolling my eyes, I reached Master Abjed's table. "You wanted me sir?" He was busy scribbling on a slip of paper, presumably an excuse slip. "The Master wants to speak with you, said it was an emergency." I raised my eyebrows, "Guess I'd better pack up now." "Yes, Mr Pavel here will bring you to him."

Pavel, huh? I've heard of him. One of the youngest person to be in administration. Now, administration doesn't mean doing paper work only. He's also one of the best warriors around. Word is, he's killed more of Destiny's minions than anyone has. And, he's only 27. The guy had a reputation of being a major kick ass admin for Fate. He's also famous for his 'anti-socialness'. They said he can just work for a whole there without speaking to anyone. Creepy, but hey, if he manages to carry out his duties well, who am I to complain?

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That's all for today..
By the way, mudak is Russian for bastard. Just so you know..^^ And yes, I swear in multiple languages..

Story..

2009-10-29T19:31:00.002+08:00

I'm bored and I don't have anything to do.. So I thought I'd post the story I'm writing here..don't be too harsh, I'm a lousy writer but..*shrugs* Anyway, I'll post a bit each day..
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I tapped my pencil impatiently. Once, twice, thrice. I looked around the room. Ugh, how long does it take for all of them to finally finish the exam? I mean, come on, we were supposed to study and, well, the paper was rather easy, at least, I think it was. Everyone should have finished it earlier.

Tick, tick, tick. I glanced at my watch, then at the clock. One more hour to go. All right, that's it. I;m leaving. But before I could ask permission to leave, a man in rich red robes silently entered the room.

My curiosity was piqued. The guy was an administrator, someone we don't see everyday. He conversed with my teacher, Master Abjed for a while. I watched them, wondering what he wanted. As if sensing my thoughts, master Abjed raised his head and met my gaze. He beckoned me to the front.

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So how was it? Thanks..^^ I appreciate the comments..

Adrian Ivashkov

2009-10-26T19:44:00.002+08:00

Adrian Ivashkov, I don't care in hell whether you are a royal or not, you ass-faced, smart-ass little punk..

DON'T YOU DARE GO NEAR ROZA HATHAWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm pretty sure the guy on Spirit Bound book cover is Adrian Ivashkov. And Rose, what in Tartarus were you thinking? Kissing ADRIAN IVASHKOV, the clover-smoking, alcohol addict, womanizer, spirit-ass idiot?!

Did you forget Dimka is waiting for you to oh you know, TURN HIM BACK TO DHAMPIR?!!!

I sincerely hope that nothing ever blossoms between the both of you.. Abe, maybe you could do me a favour and kick Ivashkov to the other end of the world from Roza? I'd be very grateful if you could do that..

Der Arscloch Ivashkov..

VA pics...

2009-10-25T21:34:00.005+08:00

Hmm..had nothing to talk about, so I'll just post these amazing pics of VA..

The first book..Vampire Academy..On the cover is Rose Hathaway..Guys, this isn't Angelina Jolie alright? Just someone who looks like her..

Second book..Frost Bite..On the cover it's Christian Ozera and Rose..

Third book and the most heart-breaking..yet..Shadow Kiss..On the cover is Lissa Dragomir and Dimitri Belikov..

The fourth book..Blood Promise..On the cover..Rose Hathaway

Fifth book coming out next year..Spirit Bound..On the cover is Rose and Dimitri..(I hope..)

And this last one, I used Adobe Photoshop and Dream Light photo editor and combined all five book covers..

Again..VA

2009-10-24T19:32:00.001+08:00

Yeah yeah..I know..I've talked about Blood Promise already..But..I'm not done yet..

I wonder what will happen in Spirit Bound. I wonder if Dimitri will ever be dhampir again, will he ever live again.

I wonder whether the both of them can live and move one.

I have a strong feeling that it won't be a happy ending, but I sincerely hope I'm wrong..

Anyway, I watched some fan made Vampire Academy videos on YouTube. For some reason, many of them want Ben Barnes as Dimitri...I mean, it's not like I hate him or anything but..Long story..

See, Ben Barnes played Prince Caspian in Narnia. And because there's Prince Caspian, Narnia doesn't need the Pevensie children anymore with him as king.. So, in the next movie, Peter and Susan are not going back to Narnia..

All right, I know, I'm being unfair, but yeah, I blame Caspian..So sorry Ben Barnes and other Ben Barnes fans, I don't hate him but I sure .. dislike Caspian..

P.S: Part of it is because I think Peter makes a better king..I certainly root for him..

Cheers

~Tagged~

2009-10-23T22:46:00.002+08:00

被点到必填，
不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。

(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了。
被点到的:
1.Amy
2.Li Yi
3.Vivian Oh
4.Yi Wen
5.Alice
6.Xiao Wen
7.Yuan Wei
8.Jinrhu
9.Bee Chian
10.Jia Ying

01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]: No duh
02-[ 10号是男还是女? ]: Girl

03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ]:I think drawing and playing the piano
or
04- [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]: I think she has one brother

05-[ 7号姓氏? ]: Lee

06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ]:Yeah

07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]: Yi Wen? Probably..But I don't poke my nose into people's affairs

08-[ 承上2号呢? ]: Pretty..but so narcissistic..haha

09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: I'm guessing pink
10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]:Again, no duh
11-[ 8号的生日是? ]: I am terribly sorry but I don't think I know this..
12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]: AMC, 4S5...

13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]: Same class in form 1

14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]: Wow..let me see..May (Sorry if I'm wrong) and November? Oh, not much..Just six months

15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]:Once

16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]: Yeah
17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]: Not bad

18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]: Pretty and mature and nice fashion sense

19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]: Straight forward..fun..insane..and sometimes scary..

20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]: What the..look..she's Batman's girlfriend since she's Alfred's daughter..No way..no offense

1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: Xiao Wen
2. 你们认识多久呢: Since form 1..the crazy class rep

3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗: Friends are important..Guys are so whatever..Break their hearts and you're so effing dead

4. 你与他(她)的关系是: Friends

5.你覺得他(她)的個性如何: She's sot sot..and more and more fun..^^

6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是: reading love stories..I think..

Spirit Bound

2009-10-22T22:51:00.004+08:00

The fifth book, but not the last of the Vampire Academy series, Spirit Bound.

It's out next year, and to heck with SPM.. I'm gonna get my hands on it the first few days it's out!

Again, Spirit Bound..

P.S: I sincerely hope the dude in the picture with Rose is Dimitri and not Adrian..I have nothing against Adrian, but sorry man, Dimitri is PERFECT for Rose..
Ciao..

Blood Promise

2009-10-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

Well, not really Blood Promise, but rather, the entire Vampire Academy series..

Richelle Mead you're the greatest writer ever!!!
VA is totally awesome, and I recommend everyone to read it..Personally, I think it's loads better than Twilight, but hey, I'm biased.. shrugs..

Anyway, Rose is totally kick ass, and sizzling hot Dimitri Belikov ( Well, according to Rose, seeing as I've never set my eyes on him before) still kicks major ass even when he's awakened as a Strigoi..

Dimitri, oh Dimitri, where for art thou? Well, most probably still in Russia, but hey, I was talking about the dhampir Dimitri, not the Strigoi Dimitri. I mean, I know, its not like they're in separate bodies or anything but, yeah, you get the picture..I'm rambling again..

Mmm..I really hope Dimitri and Rose get to be together in the end.. They're a match made in heaven.. or elsewhere, to quote Viktor Dashkov..

Don't know who I'm going on about? Read the book. Don't ask me.. I've got enough heartbreak when Dimitri turned Strigoi..Ah, the pain...

Cheers..

No no no...

2009-09-25T13:59:00.001+08:00

I keep saying 'no' these days..Don't know why..

Arggh!! I do not like that guy and yet the quiz says...

I am most like Mac Taylor!!!! Gahh!!

Oh my lord...

No Way...

2009-09-25T10:24:00.002+08:00

Oh no, I was right.. They did sleep with each other..Specifically, they pulled off a one-night-stand..

Yeah yeah, I know I've been rambling on and on about the two same people in my previous posts..And yeah, it's still Adam Ross and Stella Bonasera..

I can't believe they even did it!!!!!!!!
I didn't even think it was possible but well, guess the writers pretty much pulled off the impossible..

Weelll, Stella and Adam both agreed it was just once and will be the last time, but let's see if they can keep their hands off each other..I certainly hope they do..

Arghh! Mac Taylor! Where the hell are you!!! I thought you were the boss! SO JUST COME OUT AND STOP THEM FROM DOING IT!! OR I'LL LET THE BEACH BALL GO LIMP!!!

P.S: Sorry about that, I'm a Smacked fan..so yeah...
P.S (2): About the beach ball, Taylor's wife died in 911 and according to him, 'the beach ball still contains her breath' and he doesn't want to let the air out..

Cheers..

Trip to Singapore..

2009-09-23T19:45:00.002+08:00

Back from Singapore today..No pics actually...cause I was too lazy..XD..
Anyway, we stayed at Shangri-la hotel this time instead of Orchard Mandarin Oriental. It was a nice change. The food was great...
Urggh..truth to be told I have no idea what to write about.. We had buffet for dinner almost every night..It was very fulling, nice and I enjoyed it...I bought loads of books and cds till the suitcase could nearly be closed..I bought CSI:NY Season 3...We met a little Robin when we landed at the airport..I saw 2 or 3 Lamborghinis and a Ferrari.. Il Divo was in Giorgio Armani when we walked by.. A guy said it was Brad Pitt..(WTF??) I got a little drunk dringking a delicious cocktail which had loads of gin in it... I bought a lot of classical music..I bought Blood Promise and The Last Olympian..Basically I got almost everything I needed..So yeah, it was ok..It was a quite relaxing trip but I'm glad I'm back..
Cheers..

No...

2009-09-19T17:21:00.001+08:00

NOOO!!!
Heading to Singapore tomorrow!! I don't want to go!!!!
I want to stay at home and play the computer, play the piano and watch CSI:NY!!!

On the other hand, if I go there, I might be able to buy the books I want and also buy CSI:NY dvds..

But I still don't like Singapore..

The end.

Away..

2009-09-19T11:22:00.002+08:00

Away, away, my beauty flies
To blessed Elysium, I rest
To the Fields of Torment I roam
To the Fields of Asphodel I wait
I roam and wander and fly away
The darkness comes and leaves at will
I stand and embrace my destiny
I stand and embrace the Shadows..

Brunch..

2009-09-18T16:51:00.004+08:00

Went to Secret Recipe for brunch with Amy, Li Yi and Alfred today..It was quite fun..
I spent them for brunch, cause they've helped me out quite a bit..so thanks...^^
Erm, each of us had a slice of cake each and we shared two drinks..Amy had Indulgence, Alfred: Chocolate moist cake, Li Yi: Yogurt Cheese and me: White chocolate macadamia..Yummy!
I think we forgot that 'one slice' in Secret Recipe terms is pretty big, equivalent to 2 slices..So, we were filthy full..We had a little problem finishing the cakes, especially Amy, but then Alfred cam to the rescue! She finished the cake..lol..
We kept joking that if they were that full, they were going to be in trouble. 'They' meaning Alfred and Amy, cause they were going to Lost World after the brunch. Since they ate so much, we were afraid they would vomit when playing a sort of, I dunno, spinning ride. Talk about technicolor.

The funniest thing was, Li Yi was going to KL later and she remembered that she had packed her clothes...

But not her pants..lmao! She quickly called her dad and gave him instructions ad to which pants to bring. We were laughing like hyenas beside her. Good thing the shop was empty..

We took some photos, talked and fooled about. All in all, we had a great time.. Thanks guys!

Amy hiding her face with Alfie..

Li Yi on the phone.. Talking to bf or dad?

Alfie and Li Yi sharing milkshake.. Looks like they're kissing..=='

Amy and Alfie

Li Yi and me

Alfie's choco moist and Li Yi's yogurt cheese

Our choco-something with whipped cream and choco milkshake..Choco alert!

Amy's Indulgence and my almost-demolished white choco macadamia

Alfie's moist choco before being eaten..So delicious! It's warm! And also Li Yi's yogurt cheese

4S5 ROCKS!!!

2009-09-18T14:12:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was the best day of school days..It was the last day of school cause today Hari Raya holidays start!

No one had the heart to study.. Heck I think even Ms Leong didn't have the heart to teach us..lol..cause we celebrated her 30th birthday! She was shocked, happy and she admitted herself that she was in high spirits and couldn't concentrate on teaching..lmao..anyway, happy birthday Ms Leong!

After that, we took pics with her and Pn Maimunah. Lots of people brought cameras and during Sivik, there was no teacher so everyone kept taking pics and eating Alfie's delicious mooncakes! Thanks Alfie!

It was really fun and wild..4S5, you're the best!!

Alfred, Li Yi, Yi Lin and me..

We took pictures of Ms Teh..She didn't even notice..lmao..

Alice, Amy, Yi Lin, Li Yi and me

Mostly everyone..Playing sakai..lol

Us with Pn Maimunah and Ms Leong

The whole class with Pn Norizan, our class teach

Drum roll please..Introducing the 'beauty queen' of our class...POH LI YI!!!

Sick..

2009-09-15T15:20:00.001+08:00

Urghh..Bad gastric case..kept vomiting and my stomach felt like hell..
That was yesterday..since I couldn't stop puking, my mom said I didn't have to go to school today..

It would have been great..but...
I had to take those bitter and horrible Chinese medicines..urgh..

Sorry Li Yi, Zhi Yuen, Sook Peng and Yi Lin, today couldn't come.. And our Sivik presentation will probably be postponed again..So sorry...

Heck..

2009-09-12T11:03:00.002+08:00

Had a weird dream last night..About CSI:NY..

I know, I know, I'm probably obsessed with this show right now but hey.. what can I do?

Anyway, like most of my dreams, they don't really make sense and are not continuous..
The first part was the actress playing Stella Bonasera saying that Adam Ross and Stella will be a couple, and that would be introduced in Season 4..I was like, what the heck? That is so not true but before I had the chance to panic, I blacked out again and the next time I was conscious in my dream world, the second part started..

I have no idea why this happened but, somehow Stella got killed.. I think it had something to do with the Season 5 finale where they were all in a bar drinking to Jessica when someone shot at the windows..Then, I heard that song 'Heaven Was Needing a Hero'..That wasn't really surprising because in one of my previous dreams, the song 'Thunder' by Boys Like Girls suddenly played in my mind.. So yeah.. Maybe my brain is complicated or unstable..but what the heck..

Back to Stella..I dunno..I just know she was killed and that everyone was crying and suddenly I got sucked into one of the characters, Lindsay, I think and man she was crying a river and kneeling on the ground.. Stuff like that.. And let me tell you, it's so not pleasant to get sucked into a character so suddenly. You get confused and you don't know who you are for a while..so ..yeah..

Anyway, it was weird, it was very vague, and it made me even more mad..My dream self even knew that..I remember her saying, 'Shit! if this happens in a dream that means that in Season 6 they will be together...' Ok..first time my dream self ever said anything..

But, that's all..And no, I am not insane, merely a little..in to the show..so yeah..ciao..

Meet Detective Don Flack

2009-09-09T21:33:00.002+08:00

Guys, meet Detective Don Flack. Detective Don Flack, meet everyone..haha..this is Don Flack from CSI:NY and Poh's future boyfriend...He's cute, smart, funny and nice..Perfect bf Poh..Below are some of his funnier pics..enjoy..

No freaking way..

2009-09-09T19:20:00.002+08:00

Oh. My. Lord.
Please tell me it isn't true.

All right, I've had quite a shitty day..Well, not really but..

Let's see.. I got told off in Maths class cause I kept blabbing away to Sook Peng..(P.S:Don't worry sook Peng, isn't your fault..) Fine.. The rest of the day was ok actually, but my mood went from 'calm' to 'ballistic'.

Remember my post about Adam Ross? How I'd kill him if I found out he slpet with Stella Bonasera?

Today, I went to a website to check out some pictures, and there was that stupid trailer again..

Ok, fine, I thought, never mind.. Maybe I'm just being paranoid..

But, wait a minute, I checked the comments, and unfortunately, I wasn't being paranoid..

Everyone said: OMG! Is that Stella in a bra and Adam on the bed looking happy?

Arghh!!! I swiched off the screen then, stormed downstairs just in time for dinner. One of my dad's friend, who I didn't really like cause he was very loud, came for dinner, which fouled my mood a little more.

Fine, I ignored him, finished dinner and went to practice the piano.

Well thanks to Adam Ross and Stella probably getting it on, that stupid image wouldn't get out of my mind. In tehe end, all the songs that I could play without a single mistake: Canon in D, Etude in E Major, Salut d'Amour and Secret Lives of Daydreams, I played them horribly. Gosh, it was disasterous...

Then, I gave up, I came back upstairs. i forgot to switch off the aircond for at least half an hour! Luckily, my dad didn't find out, or I'd be yelled at for not turning it off and for wasting electricity and for increasing the electric bill..

Gee, thanks a lot, Adam and Stella.. You made a perfectly fine day go rotten to the core...

Oh No..

2009-09-07T14:13:00.000+08:00

Oh no..My dad wants to enroll me in a college in England next year, and he wants me to go to university there..
And he means it..There is no room for discussion..

I do NOT want to go to old effing England. I do not like England, and he had to send me there..I'd even go to Australia if there were no choice..

But England, no effing way, dad.. No way..

Special Post

2009-09-06T17:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I changed my blog skin but since I was too much of a techno idiot, I had to ask and trouble Amy to do it for me..

So thanks Amy, and again sorry for troubling you, although you said it was no trouble..haha..

High School Never Ends

2009-09-05T19:52:00.003+08:00

HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

4 Years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the (total dicks)
All the Stuck-up Chicks
So superficial, so immature

Then When you graduate,
Ya take a look around and you say "Hey Wait!"
This is the same as where I just came from,
I thought it was over, Aw that's just great.

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and (who's having sex)
Who‘s got the money. Who (gets the honeys)
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did!
And how did Mary Kate (lose all that weight?)
And (Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight!)

And the only thing that matters,
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're 16 or 35

Reese Witherspoon, she's the Prom Queen
Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback

Seen it all before
I want my money back!

Ch:
The Whole damn World is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's in the club and who's on the drugs
And who's throwin up before they digest

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

4 Years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the (total dicks)
All the Stuck-up Chicks
So superficial, so immature

Then When you graduate,
Ya take a look around and you say "Hey Wait!"
This is the same as where I just came from,
I thought it was over, Aw that's just great.

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money. Who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did!
And how did Mary Kate lose all that weight?
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight!

And the only thing that matters,
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're 16 or 35

Reese Witherspoon, she's the Prom Queen
Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback

Seen it all before
I want my money back!

Ch:
The Whole damn World is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's in the club and who's on the drugs
And who's throwin up before they digest

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
And you still listen to the same shit you did back then

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and (who's having sex)
Who‘s got the money. Who (gets the honeys)
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And I still don't have the right look
And I still have the same 3 friends
And I'm pretty much - the same as - I was back then(hold en)

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
Here We Go Again

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money. Who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And I still don't have the right look
And I still have the same 3 friends
And I'm pretty much - the same as - I was back then(hold en)

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
Here We Go Again

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh

P.S: That day Poh, me and Zhi Yuen were talking about how fun our class was, when I thought of this song..It sorta reminds me of how we are now..I know its about CSI:NY but, hey, it's still the same song right?

Disclaimer: This video does not belong to me..I just downloaded it form YouTube. All credit goes to the maker.

Adam Ross I Will Kill You

2009-09-04T20:39:00.002+08:00

Yeah, as the title says, Adam Ross I WILL kill you if I find out that you're sleeping with Stella Bonasera..

All right, I know this is a little sudden and random, but let me just clear it up for you. I'm watching CSI:NY right now, it's a great show, and Season 6 will be airing. So today I was looking for pictures and I stumbled upon a website, can't remember what website it was. I think it was one of the entertainment websites. You know how they sometimes post videos about previews or interviews about the TV series?

That's when doomsday struck.

All right, all right, I'm exaggerating, but I so do not want Adam and Stella to end up together! So there was this promotional video about Season 6, mind you, it is official, not fan-made. And to my absolute, terrifying, catastrophic horror, I saw Stella half undressed and Adam on the bed.

Chtoh za huey?! Sorry, that's Russian for 'WTF'..

Oh good heavens! What has the world come to? What's next? Pigs sprouting wings and me becoming a billionaire like Bruce Wayne? I so cannot effing believe that the writers would do something like that!

I'm sorry I'm ranting but I'm upset, and when I'm upset, I'm nervous, and when I'm nervous, I get irritated, and when I'm irritated..Well, you get the idea..

O Zeu kai alloi theoi! (Ancient Greek curse) I really hope that it was maybe two different scenes together... Senka, tebe pizd'et...Oh my dear heavens...

4S5

2009-09-04T16:50:00.002+08:00

I think I should write about our class 4S5, seeing it's already into September and yet I have not mentioned anything..

Let's see..4S5 is a mixture of 3p6 and 7, and also 2 other students from other classes. They had to mix the two noisiest classes together huh? Put 3p6 and 3p7 students together and you'll probably get a zoo. We are known for being noisy when there is no lessons, and yet passive when the teacher asks questions. Then we all just shut up there and then and pretend we don't know the answer to the questions.

Hmm..when I was in 3p7, we were a little more serious. But in 4S5, let's just say all hell is loose. We sing birthday songs when its someone's birthday, we joke with the teacher and even tease the teacher, especially Ms Leong, we scream and shout when we have won something, we work our asses of when there is work to be done or competitions to be won, and a certain Ms Amy wants to hold parties for every occassion. Just today she was saying she wanted to holda gathering for the Mooncake Festival, Halloween and Christmas. And the craziest thing is that I fully agree with her! Now, those who know me a few years ago would know that I probably would've just reject the idea of having so many gatherings or parties. But hey, when you have an enthusiastic planner like Amy, you learn to let your hair down once in a while.

I felt that this year, it truly is like high school. I mean, we worry about studies, but not too much. We have fun, we enjoy our time together, we fool around. We act like normal students.And I think that's the reason why 4S5 is the best class around. We act like a family; we are a family. So, here's to 4S5 and her students. Long live the spirit of 4S5! (Hehe)

If Heaven Was Needing A Hero

2009-09-02T18:48:00.002+08:00

I came by today to see you
Oh I had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time
I'd have held you, and never let go

Oh, it's kept me awake nights, wondering
I lie in the dark, just asking why
I've always been told
You won't be called home
Until it's your time

I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

I remember the last time I saw you
Oh, you held your head up proud
I laughed inside
When I saw how you were standing out in the crowd
Your such a part of who I am
Now that part will just be void
No matter how much I need you now
Heaven needed you more

Cause heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

Is Heaven was needing a hero
and that's you

Disclaimer: This song is by Jo Dee Messina, not me. I could never write such a beautiful song...

Second Random CSI

2009-09-02T17:53:00.006+08:00

Hmm..let's see, I talked about Jess yesterday.. Let's talk about Peyton Driscoll today..

I hate her.

Okay, maybe 'hate' is too strong. I dislike her...Why? Well, hmm..actually I don't really know why..Just that she dated Mac Taylor and well..I kinda want Mac to get together with Stella..So..Yeah...lame huh? Meh, at least she's in England now... Smiles evilly...

Yeah..I know I posted the video on the side iPod but..I'll post it again here..

Again to Jess, and also to Aiden Burn...

Disclaimer: This video is not my creation. I just downloaded it from YouTube. All credit goes to the creator.

Random CSI

2009-08-31T19:17:00.003+08:00

Maybe it's just another of my 'passing favourites' now but I just love CSI:NY. No, not CSI:Miami, sorry..Cause I just don't like the main character.
I just love Danny Messer, Don Flack and Jessica Angell. Especially Jessica. Unfortunately, she died..It's so sad..She's such and important part of the team and BOOM! They just kill her off like that..
Poor Don, seeing his girlfriend die like that..Anyway, here's a toast to Jessica Angell, even if she is a fictional character. That little video in the side iPod was a beautiful and sad video as a tribute to her..
Ah well..

Happy Birthday

2009-08-31T11:25:00.000+08:00

Happy 52nd birthday my beautiful Malaysia!

Celebration

2009-08-28T14:39:00.000+08:00

Soon it will be a time of celebration, at least, a time of celebration for those who love Malaysia truly, and not those who say they are Malaysian but keep complaining about this wonderful country.
I was born in Malaysia. I live in Malaysia and I love Malaysia. Unlike many others, I do not wish to go overseas and live there or study there even though I know I have the ability to do so. My friends always say it's a waste that I can afford to go overseas to study or even live there when I don't even want to do so. I know there are many people who are dissatisfied with Malaysia.

They say Malaysia is still a developing country and ought to be ashamed as Singapore who was once a part of Malaysia, is now a developed country. They think Singapore is better and that Malaysia is not up to par with Singapore.

I have nothing against Singapore or any other countries. I'm not an extremist, just someone who loves her country as much as her family. Since I was a kid my parents taught me to appreciate what I have, to appreciate my country and everything she has given to me.
Imagine if you lived in other war-ridden countries like Iraq or Palestine. Imagine if you lived in countries full of chaos everyday like Thailand. Imagine if you lived in poverty-stricken countries like Africa where children die everyday just because they're hungry.

We have everything we need here in Malaysia. Abundant food, water, shelter, great weather, no war. And yet, that's not enough for many people. No, we have to be strong and rich like America or Japan or Singapore, they say. Maybe Malaysia isn't that rich compared to those countries now, maybe we aren't that technologically advanced like America right now. To me, it doesn't matter. We will be better and stronger than them one day, I truly believe that. We don't have to be the country with the newest technology or the best military in the world to be great. We don't have to have fancy police squads with great forensics equipment or the latest espionage equipment. We have our own police and army which consist of brave men and women prepared to die for their country. Isn't that enough?

You might think my opinion childish, but I'll always hold true to my belief that Malaysia is the best country. She is my home. She gave me everything that I have now. She gave me a place to belong. I am proud to call myself Malaysian. I am proud to say that I come from Malaysia when I am abroad. I am proud and honoured to call her my home. She is my home, forever and always.

Happy 52nd Merdeka Malaysia. May you flourish as years go by.

Letter to Azuma Yunoki

2009-08-28T14:28:00.000+08:00

To Azuma:

Greetings Azuma.. Are you still as cynical as ever? You know, I think Kahoko is still afraid of you. But, that's what you want her to feel right? Nice one..
Hmm..let's see, you'll be going to America to get your MBA right? Do you plan on coming back after that? I'm sure the Yunoki Guard and Hihara would miss you very much if you don't come back...
I'm still trying to figure out how do you control your emotions in front of your grandma. By the way, she is one creepy lady, glad she isn't my grandma. But hey, you gave the term 'poker face' a new definition. I'm sure you're great at playing poker.. That is, if you play poker..

Anyway, nothing much to say, so I'll just say good luck to you in getting your MBA and also providing me more entertainment by tormenting Kahoko.
Cheers!

Yours sincerely,
Shadow

Random

2009-08-26T11:15:00.000+08:00

I got my new phone! Finally!
It's a Nokia Xpress Music with 8 gb of memory!
I know, I know that I'm probably bragging but.. what can I do?
I can finally store music without having to worry about the space anymore!
Yipee!

Eww..why am I so..hyperactive? Or is it happy?
Gross...

Pro Musica 2009

2009-08-23T16:17:00.000+08:00

Wow...erm..how should I describe this event?
For those of you who don't know, it was a sort of opera concert. I suppose it was okay..Some of the songs were nice like Auf Flugeln des Gesanges by Mendelssohn. There was one song I thought boring, but of course, it was just my opinion. After all, I am no professional.
The Faust duet "Il se fait tard", Marguerite, Faust creeped me out. Actually, grossed me out would be more appropriate. There was another one before this duet by the same two opera singers but I couldn't remember the title that also grossed me out.
No, it was not violent. Violent I could handle but it was so...so romantic..Eww!
The two of them were like touching each others faces, holding hands, hugging, the woman laid her head on the guy's chest. Heck, they even kissed!
At one part, they were like okay, holding each other, and suddenly, BOOM! The guy tries to kiss her and they're struggling with each other. Heavens! I nearly had a heart-attack and got a little hysterical after the concert was finished.

Well, that's all for now. Still, I can't quite get the image of those two people practically making out on the stage. Say, wonder whether they're dating???

Letter To Hino Kahoko

2009-08-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

To Kahoko:

Sorry to say this but, are you dense? Do you even know 6 guys like you? Oh? You don't know who they are? Let me give you a recap: Ryoutarou, Len, Kazuki, Aoi Kaji, Azuma and possibly Keiichi.

There? Know them? Sure you do. They're you FRIENDS, duh! So choose already all right? People are going crazy wanting to know who you'll choose so get on with it! Sheesh...

Anyway, word of advice: Choose Ryoutarou or I will wreak havoc upon your life! Hahaha...(not..)

Yours sincerely,
Shadow

Letter To Shimizu Keiichi

2009-08-16T15:47:00.001+08:00

To Shimizu:

Hi..How's your cello playing these days? Still playing Bach compositions? Or have you been sleeping everywhere anytime as usual? So adorable..Haha...
This will be a short letter cause there's really not much to say.. Oh yeah.. When are you going to ask Shoko-chan out? Come on, it's obvious you like her...Ask her out..I'm sure she'll say yes..^^

Anyway, just want to say your great at playing the cello, you're a prodigy and you are soooo adorable..Hehe..Bye bye, and let me know when you and Shoko-chan are dating..Haha..

Love, Shadow

Drat...

2009-08-06T21:24:00.001+08:00

Just as the title says..Drat...
We have a new Maths teacher and well, I don't know half of what she just said today..
I mean, it's not like I don't like her, it's just that, I don't understand what she's trying to teach us...
I, and my maths, are so effing doomed..

Victory!

2009-08-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

Victory to 4S5!
Woohoo! We won the competition for gaining most profit!
Thanks all of you who did so much hard work to prepare the maze and also to act as ghosts, even though I was too afraid to go in...haha...
Anyway, we are so going to PARTY!!!!!!
Go 4S5, oh yeah...

A Letter To Ryoutarou

2009-08-03T18:05:00.000+08:00

Well, I've written a letter to Len, and now its Ryoutarou's turn..

Ryoutarou:

Honestly, I don't really know what I should say. But first, let me say that your piano playing is absolutely marvelous, possibly even preceding that of Hamai Misa's. You truly are talented.

Next, you're a great guy: kind, warm, friendly, talented...Not like someone you and I both know..So while his letter is full of reprimands, I am happy to say that your letter will be full of praises.

You're perfect for Kahoko. From the first time you saved her from falling, to the time you accompanied her even though you did not want anyone to know of your talent, to the time you played Liszt's Dreams of Love..Ah, truly romantic...

I end this letter by sincerely wishing you good luck in your pursuit of Kahoko. A word of advice: Do NOT let Aoi Kaji or Len Tsukimori near her, and I am perfectly sure she will be yours. Good luck...

Yours sincerely,
Shadow

A letter to Len Tsukimori

2009-08-02T18:31:00.000+08:00

Finally, something not so glum..
This is a letter to Len Tsukimori of La Corda D'Oro Primo Passo..

Len:
The first thing I want to say is, I know you are talented, that you are a prodigy. But honestly, it sure as hell does not give you the right to be that rude. No wonder Ryoutarou called you an ice cube...
Second thing, do you like Kahoko? I mean, for a guy who likes Kahoko, you sure are treating her rather badly. I mean, you are rude to her, you say she's bad at playing the violin, that her standard and yours are waaay apart. But when you see Ryoutarou or Kazuki being all friendly to her, you get jealous. Seriously, do you like her or not?
Third, I really hope you don't like her. At least, not in the romantic sense. But even if you like her, I hope she doesn't like you as someone more than a friend. No offense but does she even know you like her? Or for the matter, does she even know that you, Ryou, Kazuki and Azuma like her? Never mind..

Well, that's all I want to say. I hope Kahoko gets together with Ryou, and that you have another girlfriend who's not Kahoko..

Cheers..

Sincerely yours,
Shadow

P.S:This was not meant to insult anybody, just to make fun of ice cube here..hahaha...