Poor Doggie..

I just saw this beautiful white dog outside my house today. According to my brother it's already been there for a week. I think it's been abandoned. There'e no collar around it's neck and it's eyes are so, so sad. It refused to eat the little food we gave to it, just kept looking around, as if waiting for someone to come. I don't know where it's owner is, but if he or she really did abandon this poor, beautiful and loyal dog, I must say that they are absolutely heartless.

Do they know how sad their dog looks when they have been abandoned? Did they see the pain in it's eyes when it realised it's owner has left it all alone?

I hope the dog will be all right. Trying to find someone to adopt it and get it to the vet, since my 'all mighty' brother just issued an order for me to find someone to take the dog to the vet NOW. Sheesh..Poor doggie.. :(

Back?

After a long, loong hiatus I've finally come back to this blog. It's been, I think about 2 years? Many things have changed; people gone, going to university, meeting new people. Yeah, life does go on.

I remember the first time I wrote in this blog. I was so full of anger and sadness then, so ready to destroy. But, I'm glad I'm so much more happier now. I feel so much more comfortable in my own skin, with my own personality, no matter how dysfunctional it is. I guess it's what makes me unique.

Let's see, things that have changed. I do read less now, that's a shame. I simply don't have the time to just sit and read. I've started exercising now, finally. I suppose some things have changed for the better, but one thing I regret is that I never write these days. I used to sprout these little stories, projects I have never finished before. But it did give me pleasure to write. Maybe I'll start writing again, and maybe drawing too.

So, I suppose I'll stop here for now, come back in a few days or so. It's nice, actually to see how I recorded my thoughts and how I've changed. Ciao.

Complicated

Why does everyone have to make everything so complicated?

Is it because I'm too 'naive' to see that everything does not have to be as complicated as you make out?

If you want something, just freaking spit it out already..It's no use tarrying and making contradictory statements or actions.

If you want to solve it, just talk, all right?

Just stop thinking that everyone is out to get to you, and just stop thinking that you're the only one who matters..Don't always think that you're the only one to get hurt.

You're not the only human in this world.

So stop being a coward and just face it.

PPS 2010 Farewell

I just want to say this. F4 and F3 juniors, all of you..I'm so frigging proud of all of you..

Thank you for giving me these wonderful memories tonight.. Heaven knows how much I will miss all of you..Including the teachers, Ms Cheong, Pn Chen and Pn Mavis and of course Mdm Foo..Hehe..thanks for finally singing tonight..

How could so many wonderful things happen in 3 hours? How could we all laugh till we were hoarse and cheer and sing and cry and hug? I wish tonight would last for eternity, but all good things must come to end..

Thank you for the laughter. Especially media, your sketch was hilarious. The advertisements were funny as well. The dances and the songs were wonderful.

You know what my favourite part was? The part where we hugged each other. As I kept hugging people surrounding me; Xiao Wen, Li Yi, Yit Yeng, Janice, Debbie, Jia Wei, Ying Shyn, Brenda, Jo Ee, Eva, Nicole, 小孩子, Li Li, Xi Yee, Sook Kuen, Wee Shien, Ms Cheong, Pn Mavis.. I realized that I had so many people that I care and love for and I didn't want to say goodbye to them.

But then everyone must say goodbye at some point. The Form 5s say goodbye this year and tonight. But that doesn't mean we'll forget each and everyone of you.

'I promise you, I'm always there, When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair. I'll carry you, when you need a friend. You'll find my footprints in the sand.'

We're always there. And we won't forget. We ask you not to forget as well.

I love you PPS.. I won't ever forget anyone from PPS. You gave me the most memorable memories in my entire life.. You're the best and will always be the best, long after batch after batch of us leave. F4 and F3 pps, Ms Cheong, Pn Mavis, Pn Chen, Mdm Foo.. I love all of you and I hope you won't forget me because I promise..I won't ever forget..

Love..

Power

What is power to most people? The power to be rich, to have power in the government, to have power to command people around.

The power I want? The power to protect my family, most importantly my brother.

The only way to protect is to have the power to protect. With that power, I can make sure no one touches or hurts my family. With that power, I can crush anyone who tries to hurt my family. With that power, my family will be invincible.

Lelouch vi Brittannia wanted geass to protect his sister, I want power to protect my family. I suppose then, that we aren't that different at all.

I swear by my soul, I will protect my brother and family from everything, even from other family members, be it cousins, uncles or whosoever. I WILL destroy them.

Insanity

I'm insane, I suppose many people don't know that. Well, not insane, more of mad actually. I'm actually perfectly normal thank you very much, it's just that 'mad' in my case means different from others.

I say I'm mad, but then do mad people admit that they are mad? Do humans know they are mad? Are they even mad?

Maybe not mad, just stupid, insipid and not able to see through everything.

I found today's literature question interesting. The question is, why is love important in a family?

Why is it important? I doubt anyone really knows the answer. Can a family actually exist without love? Depends on what type of family you're talking about. Real life families, the normal families. Is love important for them? If so, then why? Why is it that love is so important that we humans cannot live wihout it?

I used to think that hate could never have existed, should not exist in a family. What do I think now? I found out that, like fairytales, a perfect family is non existent, just like the prince charming every girl dreams for is fake.

Love may be important, but that doesn't mean hate isn't there. Could you love and hate someone at the same time? The answer is yes. I'm not talking about loving and hating your so called lover at the same time because I'm sorry to say, that is just the most worthless thing on the world.

What I mean is the hatred you feel sometimes for one of your famiy members, and yet you love them so deeply at the same time. You feel so sick for hating them and yet you can't help but despise them for that one moment then.

So answer me, is love always there in a family? Or is hate there as well?

PRETEND; DON'T BS!!

You don't know me so don't pretend
I'm not who you think I am
Just because I show you this
Doesn't mean that it's me

I don't need your stupid lies
I don't need your 'love' you give
So what if I'm just an empty husk
It's not as if I even care

So don't you even dare assume
You know me not just face the truth
So go ahead and believe all that you want
Cause in the end I still won't care

I'm not the perfect daughter you want
But fine by me, I'm who I want
So don't think you know all of me
Because that is not happening.