Merry Christmas..

Hey guys, like I said, I'll be leaving tomorrow, so I'll just greet you guys first...I know it's early, but, again like I said before, I'll only be back when school reopens...

So..Merry Christmas guys! Oh, and a Happy New Year as well....Hmm.....Well...Have a great holiday and I hope you all will have a nice Christmas...

Ja ne...

Cheers...

P.S: Senpai, thanks again for the card..You know who you are...Kyuu...Lmao...
P.S.2: I forgot, this little creature here (name's With/Wiz from D.N. Angel) is soooo freaking cute!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

Friggin hell!!! I have to wear a freaking DRESS!!!!!!!!!!!

Going on a cruise is meant to be F.U.N... Don't those people know what the meaning of FUN is? It means NO dressing up, NO posh stuff, NO eating with 3 forks and 2 knives AND 2 spoons, and NO formal nights!!!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why? Why me? WHY???????????????????????????????

Cheers..

Trip...

UWAH!!!!!!!!!! I'm leaving on Tuesday and coming back on 4TH OF JANUARY!!!! I'M GOING TO MISS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!

Nani...=="

Ah well....I'll see you guys when I come back...I might be able to buy something back if it's possible...so yeah...

Poh, please help me with the favour I asked you...and also pretty please remind Pn Norizan to tell the new form teacher why I'm absent...

Arigatou sempai!!

Cheers...

DAARK!!!

Oh gods...So sad..The ending of D.N. Angel..

Oh come on, you guys cry over Korean movies, I am entitled to a little sob fest of mine over an anime right?

Dark's gone... He said to Daisuke...

'Daisuke, don't forget..
I exist inside of you..'

'Dark..'
'I'll never forget you..'

Waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you..

I just wanted to say thank you to my friends who have stood by me and cheered me up when I was feeling down..especially with my rather depressing few posts these days..Thank you Poh, XWen and Amy for your kind comments...^^ Doesn't mean my other friends don't stand by me..Just that they commented on it and I thank them for it..Love all of you..XP..Thank you..

Cheers..

Depression..

Having another bout of depression..Things are changing, and I am not liking them..

Next year my brother is leaving for college in Australia, my nanny, who's like my best friend at home sometimes, is leaving later in the morning. And my parents will be busy in KL next year, leaving me here.

I admit, I'm scared. I'm afraid of being lonely. When my brother was here, I could fool around with him. It was easy with him around because I suppose we're closer than twins even..We don't have to speak to know what we're going to say. He knows what I like and I know what he likes. He teases me sometimes but he's concerned..I'll miss that.

All of these are just starting to make sense in my mind and truth to be told, it's all going to burst. I'm going to go insane one day, with all the fear locked inside of me. I can't let my parents know, I don't want them to worry. I just hope by the time I go insane, my life would have been good.

Cheers..

Growing up..

Hmm..two posts in a day..I must be getting a lot of ideas...From somewhere..

Growing up..Something teenagers tend to think about at this age..Or, so I think..

Growing up doesn't just mean going to college, then university and getting a job then settling down. The above does play a large part in that, but to me, growing up means you understand.

You understand you are no longer a child with your parents to protect you, that you can no longer count on your parents to take care of you. You understand that life isn't easy, and never is fair. You understand that human lives are dispensable and that anytime, anyone can die. You understand that you just have to get used to the fact that you can't kid yourself into thinking that when someone dies, they are gone, and not asleep.

You understand it's time to toughen up, to accept everything from failure to heart-break and just get up again.

I..do not want to grow up. Yes, childish isn't it? I mean, there's no Neverland and no Peter Pan to take me to a place where I'll never grow old. It's just, when you grow up, and the years pass by, people you love and care for fade away. I love my parents, my brother and my relatives, but one day they'll all be gone. I suppose I'm afraid I'll be lonely. I am anti-social, sort of and yet I need to have people around me.

When it's night and everyone's asleep, I think of the future when my family is gone. What is my purpose in life then? I know this sounds stupid but, to me, I only have a sole purpose in life. And that is to protect my family. When they are gone, why should I continue living?

It's against my religion o commit suicide, but..If I lost the will to live, would that count as suicide? If I accidentally took more sleeping pills than prescribed and never woke up, would that count as suicide?

My thoughts are dark, and even more darker they will get. I hope, that there will be salvation, true salvation. Huh, after all, what is dark may not necessarily be bad and what is light may not always be good.

Cheers..

Ramblings and Whatnot..

I've been in a rather..philosophical mood lately..Perhaps it is due to the fact that I have been rereading Artemis Fowl and some of his analysis of well, almost everything, has made me more aware of some issues. I have been thinking about them for quite some time now.
The thing is, I have never thought of these issues for, let's just say a very long time. I wonder, am I loosing my touch? Or is my more human side resurfacing?
Listen to me ramble, I doubt anyone of you would know exactly what I am insinuating here. And frankly, I intend to keep it that way.

Enough of that, I will now move on to other subjects. I have decided to take up a degree on psychology and biotechnology. Strange combination, I must admit, but I am very interested in the mind of humans. Imagine studying how human minds work and one day perhaps finding out and restoring some archaic ability that we have long since forgotten. It also gives me great satisfaction to be able to read humans like an open book. Of course, I am already a walking lie-detector right now, (instinct, my friends) but I think that with some research, studying and refining I would be able to read humans better.

Now, biotechnology. I suppose I am rather influenced to research how exactly are we able to help solve environmental problems, and one of the most important issues to me, animal extinction. I suppose I would like to save the precious few animals that are going extinct. No thanks to the idiocies and hypocrisy, not to mention vanity and stupidity of the human race that by consuming parts of animals, say the paw of the bear, we can obtain great health and extremely good and strong immune system! Now I think that is, simply put, hogwash, bullshit, absolute nonsense and balderash. Think, if in the future there were another far more superior species than Homo Sapiens, and they say,'By consuming the hands of humans we will be strong and invulnerable.' Think of that and you will understand how absolutely tosh it is to kill off an entire species of animals.

Well now, I suppose that I have ranted long enough now. Mayhap might find something to talk about next time.

Cheers..

Lazy..

I'm so lazy to update because frankly, there is nothing to upload of...


Ти не удна. Пуомний, Я всегда рядом.
You are not along. Remember, I'm always next to you.

Мая красавитса
My beauty...


They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday

They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday

~Yesterday, Leona Lewis~

Ah hell..

Just as the freaking title implies..

Hell.

My eye is throbbing, my head is pounding, my temper's on the rise and my stupid nose is acting up again.

Chto za huey?!

Ah screw it..

Tarot Cards

Yeah, I know.. Some people think it's just a bunch of superstitious crap, others like my parents think it's well..bad and..not good...

Anyway, I've always been quite fascinated with tarot cards because I feel that they hold much power. Of course, I believe that you have to have the gift to read the cards, but seeing as I clearly don't have the gift, I'm just fooling around with my own deck.

Let's see, tarot cards consist of Major and Minor Arcana. The number of Major Arcana varies with different decks. For the more simpler ones they have only the main ones such as The Fool, The Emperor and Empress, The Magician, The Priestess, The Hierophant, The Wheel of The World, Death, The Hanging Man, The Sun and a few more. The Minor Arcana is categorized into four, that is Cups, Wands or Rods, Swords and Pentacles. They are then subdivided into aces, Twos to Tens, then the Court Cards, such as Page, Queen, Knight and King. Cups, Wands, Swords and Pentacles each symbolize a different element, Water, Fire, Earth or Air and therefore symbolizes different things, for example Cups represents Water, which in turn symbolizes emotions.

People fear the Wheel of The World the most, because when this card is drawn, it means change is coming, whether good or bad we don't know. The Wheel is always turning, our fortunes turn with it.

People also fear the Death card, which usually has a skeleton as it's main feature. But the Death card does not necessarily mean death itself. It usually means new beginnings, and end of bad things. Rarely does it mean death.

The card I fear or dislike the most is the Eight of Swords. For most decks, I think the card shows a blind-folded woman who is surrounded by a wall of eight swords, hence the name. It means that the person is deliberately blinding him or herself from knowledge. The means are there, but they won't acknowledge it. It also means ignorance.

Before my parents forbid me from using the cards, I usually used the Daily Spread, which only requires three cards which represents the Past, Present and Future. Less complicated, easy for me to use and I understand it more. I do use another spread which I only use when I have questions to ask. But most of the time they tell me things I already know, or think I already know..So yeah..Like I said, I don't have the gift...

Of course, there are a lot of different spreads, one of the most common is the Celtic Cross Spread. But then, the more specific questions need to be asked, the more difficult it is, and more complicated..

Ok...so that's it..cheers...

VA AUGMENTED REALITY

Ok, so this company, Ogmento and another company, Magitech (forgive me if I'm wrong), came up with this totally cool thing called augmented reality for VA.
So basically, you snap a photo of yourself using your webcam, then raise you VA book cover to the webcam, then your face is totally on the cover of VA!


ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO FREAKING COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll post the link...OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1wPO-iymPUQ&feature=player_embedded

Go there or

http://us.penguingroup.com/static/packages/us/yreaders/vampireacademy/index.html

I don;t care if you're fans or not...YOU MUST WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Illusions and Disillusions..

A little depressed these few days..Especially today..But...
Don't worry, I'm not going to cut myself or do something stupid.
I realize now that life is immaterial. People you love can always leave anytime.

Even the people you thought were the strongest and could never falter.

'People are people and sometimes we change our minds..'
Breath, Taylor Swift

People are still people, no matter how strong or powerful they are. No matter how much they seemed like a hero to you, your personal Superman. When the time comes, they will leave. And the only thing to do is grieve.

I never let anyone see my grief. I can't. I didn't cry at the past two funerals. But I did cry when I got the news. I was shocked, I didn't think he'd leave that soon.

I didn't think he'd leave at all.

I get attached too emotionally. I remember seeing a mail someone forwarded to me. It said : 'People who are the toughest are actually the softest at heart. People who look to protect people want to be protected themselves.' And they're right.

I've grown a sort of shield around me. I don't let anyone see my pain. I try to take away their pain, in the end adding to my own pain, even though it is irrelevant.

I've tried to let go..Can't..I'm starting to loose hope, to want to open Pandora's box and let go of Hope. I want to let go, I just want to lie and rest...

Love him...

He'll never hold you like the way he did before
He'll never whisper your name in your ear again
What would you give to have him right next to you
You love him, but this is goodbye

You'll never have another like him again
He understood you more than anyone ever could
I know that he's gone
But will you give your heart to another

He'd want to see you live
He'd want you to be happy
He'd want to see you remember him
His scent his eyes his Zen life lessons
He'd always be there with you

His spirit lingers on and on
He'll never leave you like he promised you ago
You won't see him, he won't let you
He would want you to move on

He'll be waiting when it's all over
They say that you'll meet five people in heaven
And I think I can say he'll be the first that you see
The first the last, he'll always be there
Love him forever, it was meant to be..

So sad..so so sad..Tears fall as I write the story of them...
Cheers..

Spirit..VA

Why do I have to feel the pain
Pain I take away
Pain that never was mine
I see now that I am the Marked of the Ones
Yet know my soul is weary and burdened
And Hope she lives but wavers still
The clock is ticking
The sands of Time pouring
Falling into the never ending abyss where Shadows lie
And souls are screaming
Salvation they ask, shattered souls
And yet I cannot grant what is needed
The heart that is broken cannot be mended
As two halves of a whole cannot be reunited
As the living live, while the dead wander
And the undead walk, and hunt and kill
No guardian shall guard
What is to be and what will be
I know the evil in the soul
Old, ancient, power beyond that imagined
And yet, but wait
Human lingers
His soul is not dark-ridden as others have been
Could love be stronger than stone and fate?
Could the broken and shattered be mended by faith?
I see two paths, and three and none
I see the Sisters Three of Fate
I see the thread of life that hangs
In limbo between life and death
And spirit will infuse and heal what is dead
For the undead have no souls
And shall be healed
The lovers two will embrace once more
The decree that has been set in Destiny
The decree that I have seen and obey.

Lol..I was writing something random and it suddenly turned into something about VA..Read and you will know what I mean if you have read the books..Ask Yi Wen if you like..^^
Cheers

Oooo...

Sheesh, my brother bought the new Galaxie, and he picked the 'Team Edward' one cause he really didn't like Jacob Black..Weird for someone who says he likes werewolves more than vampires..Oh well.. Shrugs...

Anyway, anyone seen Dakota Fanning yet? Brrrr..she looks creepy...and those red eyes...She'd make a perfect Strigoi...Scary..And she's only 14...O.O

Take a look...



Cheers..

VA vs Twilight

Yeah..Actually, I don't hate Twilight, but.... Well, here I dissect why I dislike Twilight..

Yes, I know, I've never read or watched Twilight, so to be fair, I can't really criticize it...

But from what I heard from friends, it's the usual boy meets girl, girl meets boy, they both fall in love, BOOM, happy ending..

Whereas Vampire Academy, well, there isn't any happy ending, at least, for now..
But seriously, Rose and Dimitri are both dhampirs, its illegal and they can't conceive any children.

That was when Dimitri was a dhampir. Now, he's a strigoi, the immortal and evil vampires. And Rose has to kill him because, let's face it, there isn't a way to cure Strigoi. Weel, there maybe one, but the cure has to be retrieved from Robert Doru, half brother of Victor Dashkov. The same vVictor who kidnapped and tortured Lissa Dragomir, Rose's best friend. So, yeah..
How can you have a heppy ending when you have to kill the guy you love? Your soul mate?

So no offense to Twilight and its fans, but to me , Twilight and the story is sort of light-weight and not really as dark as VA could get sometimes...

Cheers..

OMG!!!

OMG, Vampire Academy is slated to be THE next Twilight..Not that I watch or read Twilight, mind you, but it is rather popular right now..

VA IS TOTALLY GAINING POPULARITY AND FREAKING FAME!!!!!!!!!!
Proof:

Wohoo!!!!!!!!

1. Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead

Article - Donnelly Next Twilight - Vampire Academy Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead. 336 pages. Razorbill. $8.99 Richelle Mead’s Vampire Academy is the obvious heir to the Twilight throne. Twilight critics who found heroine Bella’s personality to be on the weak side will find their antidote in Rose, the feisty, snarky, headstrong lead in this six-book series. As a Dhampir, a half-mortal/half-vampire warrior, Rose is sworn to protect the Moroi—mortal vampires who walk in the sun, feed without killing, and grow old and die—from the Strigoi, vampires of the traditional immortal-killing-machine variety. When Twilight was starting to heat up a few years ago, Razorbill editor Jessica Rothenberg went on the hunt for a new series with bite. “We went ahead and we read everything out there, and we felt like this was the best-written vampire series that we’d seen. We just felt like it was the perfect thing to be the next big thing, when Twilight was done. We wanted this to be the series teens are reaching for,” Rothenberg says. Sure enough, there are plenty of elements that make this series methadone for those in Twilight withdrawal, from Rose’s forbidden (and steamy!) romance with her mentor Dimitri to epic brawls with the baddie vamps. Readers are responding to the series with gusto—Vampire Academy has spent 15 weeks so far on The New York Times children’s series list, recently hitting as high as No. 2, just under Twilight. The fifth book in the series, Spirit Bound, is due out in May 2010, and the sixth and final book is slated for fall 2010. A six-book spinoff series will start in fall 2011.

Source: http://www.thedailybeast.com/blogs-and-stories/2009-11-19/the-next-twilight-1/?cid=topic:mainpromo1

Ah! VA! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Adrian, FUCK OFF AWAY FROM ROSE!!!!

P.S: DIMKA!!! COME BACK TO BE WITH ROOOSEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Cheers...

Hate..

Poshyol ty you cat-insane woman! Grrr...hate you so much...

Ok, you ask us to do project..What-freaking-ever fine...

You want to know the freaking measurements, fine...Why? You want to make the project into shirts for you ah? Huh? I don't think you can fit in, so sorry to tell you that..

Do you have Alzheimer's? You told us to use hand to write..then you say : "You're all 21st century people, so show me some freaking 21st century work!" Wei lah, mak cik..you think people in 21st century don't use pencil or pen to write ah? Huh? You want us to write in the sky ah? I didn't know there is sky touch screen one wor..you guys know that ah?

Then when people finish and pass up to you, just freaking accept it lah! Appreciate that we as the students decide to give you face and slave over the project to give it to you..

If people do wrong, fine! Just tell them that they're wrong! Mind you, when I said 'tell them', I don't mean standing in front of the class and yell at them! You're the teacher, so teach! Don't yell! If you yell, we won't freaking listen! Sheesh...

I don't even know why you want us to do it so beautifully.. What, you want to show off to others and say, :" You see? My students do one ah.. I'm such a good teacher ah!" Fuck! That doesn't even make sense!

You say you want us to 'keep clean' your freaking reputation. Well get this, whether or not we do well in exams DOES NOT affect your reputation..Your reputation has already been made since you started teaching. If you really were a good teacher, your reputation as a good teacher won't fade. If we don't do well in exams, that's our own problem! The main thing is that you DID teach, regardless of whether we did listen or not..

So, guys, cheer up, especially you Poh, I know you're really tired with pps and this project..But chin up ok?

Cheers..

2012

Oh my freaking God!!! 2012 is so freaking cool!!

But seriously, it had what I thought was a happy ending..

I mean, when I think of the end of the world, I think that the earth blows up and everyone dies, but quite a lot of people survived..Of course, they had to give 1 billion euros to survive on the craft so.. But come on, they were freaking trillionaires, 1 billion euros is probably like a speck of dust..sheesh..

Vivian..don't be so freaking stuborn.. Sasha the pilot really looks a lot better than your Lee Teuk..Even my brother agrees..Stop being so bullish and admit it lah..haha..

I'll post pictures later..So lazy these days..Hz..cheers..



See guys? This is Sasha, the pilot I was talking about..Really, I know you guys are fans of Super Junior, but come on, you have to admit he at least looks more like a man than Lee Teuk right? Anyway, buh- bye..

BTW, Sasha is the Russian nickname for Alexander, so before you go off making jokes about his name, I'm telling you his real name..До свидания..Bye bye

Doom...

Should I worry about being an alcoholic? Maybe, a little..

These days the little bottle of Shandy is seemingly becoming my best friend. Yeah, Shandy is an extremely weak alcoholic drink, and everyone should be able to stomach it..Still..

I guess one of the reasons why I turn to it is that it feels numbing. It numbs my feelings and thoughts for the moment and I need that. Though not as badly as Ivashkov needs it..

Anyway, let's just say it helps me from spiraling deeper into that infinite pit of darkness..

Cheers..

Thanks!!!

I almost forgot.. A very very BIIIGGGG thank you to Poh, Alfred, Yi Lin and Loh Peng for giving me a box of Hershey's Kisses!! Dark Chocolate Kisses and Strawberry Filling!!!

Thank you guys soooo much..I really appreciate your gift..I'm so touch..* starts to cry..

Again, Thank you!!! You're the best friends anyone could ever have..



A lousy picture I took of the chocos..I dunno..my hand seems to be shaking..Oh well..

Urgh...

Exactly what the title says..I feel like freaking crap these days..Too lazy to update my blog..Too lazy to on the computer..Too lazy to practice the piano..Whatever..

Not to mention getting a liiitttlee depressed whenever I think about VA and anything to do with it..Lets see, that includes, Russia, my freaking Russian dictionary, a couple that reminds me of Rose and Dimitri, a song that reminds me of them, a story..Well actually, everything..

I know, I know, I'm obsessing over a book and getting unnecessarily upset but..Again, whatever..

Sorry, had to get that out..So sad..so so sad...

Birthday..

Guys I know, sorry I didn't come to school on my birthday...I fell sick..~sobs~

Anyway, thanks for all of your wishes and, I know I never said this but I LOVE you guys!

4S5 ROCKSSSSSSSSSSS!

Спасибо Четыре СПять! (Thank you 4S5!)

Buria..

Once upon a time
A child there hath been
So bright so calm so innocently fresh
She was a shining star
A star she be burning so brightly
And love she did with passion
Her life was good, was gold was sheltered
She knew not life one bit
But then one day
A pit hath opened
And fell in did she go
A dark deep pit, no help will she get
The child was lost forever
Emerged from the pit a new being did
'Twasn't her at all
A dark being it was, with a heart of stone
Stood there in her stead
The shadow lived the girl's life long
But yet resurface she did
But what use it was to stand there still
When the reins were denied to her
Oh the pain she felt, she knew she learnt
As she lived through the shadow of her
Ah but grateful she be to the being that was her
For she had not the strength to stand
The shadow taught her many things
Of death of life and pain
But as days pass and the bond grew stronger
The shadow started to fade
The shadow that was once her protector
Is leaving her alone
And whence she had the shield of the shadow
Now she must stand alone
The pain she felt when the shadow was there
Returned ten-fold, nothing could be done
All she could do, was stand and hope
Because hope, is all she has left..

Tebe Pizdets Sooka..

That's right..You are so fucking fucked if I find out who the fucking bitch you are..

The hell you think you're doing huh? You get a kick out of fucking up everyone? Is that it? You like to see our fucking asses get fucking burnt?

That's not all. The fucking little girl had to go fucking complaining to her mother about something that does not fucking concern her fucking mind.

If you're not even in our class, what the fuck do you care about how we use the god-damned money huh? Are you god-damned jealous? If so, then come and freaking tell us to our freaking faces you two faced, whore bitch.

If you are from our class, I will make sure your life will be a fucking, living hell as long as you're in this class.

Bitch out about anything to anyone, you see me giving me a damn? But try to bitch me out for something I didn't do and for pulling my name through the fucking slums, and you're so dead you slut.

Fuck off and don't even think of fucking coming back. You've crossed the line, sooka. And now you're gonna fucking pay.

Continue..

I know, the beginning is confusing cause I haven't really got to the point..Anyway, I'll continue but the point of the story is sort of..in the middle..you'll see..

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I shrugged, then uncoiled myself from my seat and walked to the front. As I passed rows of students, a voice grunted out, "Busted." I didn't have to turn around to know who it was. Corey Steins. class bully, dim-wit and God's gift to women. Or so he says.

"In your dreams *mudak.." Rolling my eyes, I reached Master Abjed's table. "You wanted me sir?" He was busy scribbling on a slip of paper, presumably an excuse slip. "The Master wants to speak with you, said it was an emergency." I raised my eyebrows, "Guess I'd better pack up now." "Yes, Mr Pavel here will bring you to him."

Pavel, huh? I've heard of him. One of the youngest person to be in administration. Now, administration doesn't mean doing paper work only. He's also one of the best warriors around. Word is, he's killed more of Destiny's minions than anyone has. And, he's only 27. The guy had a reputation of being a major kick ass admin for Fate. He's also famous for his 'anti-socialness'. They said he can just work for a whole there without speaking to anyone. Creepy, but hey, if he manages to carry out his duties well, who am I to complain?

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That's all for today..
By the way, mudak is Russian for bastard. Just so you know..^^ And yes, I swear in multiple languages..

Story..

I'm bored and I don't have anything to do.. So I thought I'd post the story I'm writing here..don't be too harsh, I'm a lousy writer but..*shrugs* Anyway, I'll post a bit each day..
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I tapped my pencil impatiently. Once, twice, thrice. I looked around the room. Ugh, how long does it take for all of them to finally finish the exam? I mean, come on, we were supposed to study and, well, the paper was rather easy, at least, I think it was. Everyone should have finished it earlier.

Tick, tick, tick. I glanced at my watch, then at the clock. One more hour to go. All right, that's it. I;m leaving. But before I could ask permission to leave, a man in rich red robes silently entered the room.

My curiosity was piqued. The guy was an administrator, someone we don't see everyday. He conversed with my teacher, Master Abjed for a while. I watched them, wondering what he wanted. As if sensing my thoughts, master Abjed raised his head and met my gaze. He beckoned me to the front.

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So how was it? Thanks..^^ I appreciate the comments..

Adrian Ivashkov

Adrian Ivashkov, I don't care in hell whether you are a royal or not, you ass-faced, smart-ass little punk..

DON'T YOU DARE GO NEAR ROZA HATHAWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm pretty sure the guy on Spirit Bound book cover is Adrian Ivashkov. And Rose, what in Tartarus were you thinking? Kissing ADRIAN IVASHKOV, the clover-smoking, alcohol addict, womanizer, spirit-ass idiot?!

Did you forget Dimka is waiting for you to oh you know, TURN HIM BACK TO DHAMPIR?!!!

I sincerely hope that nothing ever blossoms between the both of you.. Abe, maybe you could do me a favour and kick Ivashkov to the other end of the world from Roza? I'd be very grateful if you could do that..

Der Arscloch Ivashkov..

VA pics...

Hmm..had nothing to talk about, so I'll just post these amazing pics of VA..


The first book..Vampire Academy..On the cover is Rose Hathaway..Guys, this isn't Angelina Jolie alright? Just someone who looks like her..


Second book..Frost Bite..On the cover it's Christian Ozera and Rose..


Third book and the most heart-breaking..yet..Shadow Kiss..On the cover is Lissa Dragomir and Dimitri Belikov..


The fourth book..Blood Promise..On the cover..Rose Hathaway


Fifth book coming out next year..Spirit Bound..On the cover is Rose and Dimitri..(I hope..)


And this last one, I used Adobe Photoshop and Dream Light photo editor and combined all five book covers..

Again..VA

Yeah yeah..I know..I've talked about Blood Promise already..But..I'm not done yet..

I wonder what will happen in Spirit Bound. I wonder if Dimitri will ever be dhampir again, will he ever live again.

I wonder whether the both of them can live and move one.

I have a strong feeling that it won't be a happy ending, but I sincerely hope I'm wrong..

Anyway, I watched some fan made Vampire Academy videos on YouTube. For some reason, many of them want Ben Barnes as Dimitri...I mean, it's not like I hate him or anything but..Long story..

See, Ben Barnes played Prince Caspian in Narnia. And because there's Prince Caspian, Narnia doesn't need the Pevensie children anymore with him as king.. So, in the next movie, Peter and Susan are not going back to Narnia..

All right, I know, I'm being unfair, but yeah, I blame Caspian..So sorry Ben Barnes and other Ben Barnes fans, I don't hate him but I sure .. dislike Caspian..

P.S: Part of it is because I think Peter makes a better king..I certainly root for him..

Cheers

~Tagged~

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(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
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被点到的:
1.Amy
2.Li Yi
3.Vivian Oh
4.Yi Wen
5.Alice
6.Xiao Wen
7.Yuan Wei
8.Jinrhu
9.Bee Chian
10.Jia Ying


01-[ 4号认识6号吗? ]: No duh
02-[ 10号是男还是女? ]: Girl

03-[ 8号的兴趣是? ]:I think drawing and playing the piano
or
04- [ 1号有没有兄弟姐妹? ]: I think she has one brother

05-[ 7号姓氏? ]: Lee

06-[ 10号人缘好吗? ]:Yeah

07-[ 4号有人追吗? ]: Yi Wen? Probably..But I don't poke my nose into people's affairs

08-[ 承上2号呢? ]: Pretty..but so narcissistic..haha

09-[ 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]: I'm guessing pink
10-[ 3号和10号是朋友吗? ]:Again, no duh
11-[ 8号的生日是? ]: I am terribly sorry but I don't think I know this..
12-[ 5号读哪呢? ]: AMC, 4S5...

13-[ 你怎么认识10号的? ]: Same class in form 1

14-[ 你跟1号的生日差几个月? ]: Wow..let me see..May (Sorry if I'm wrong) and November? Oh, not much..Just six months

15-[ 你和9号有出去玩过吗? ]:Once

16-[ 你喜欢和2号聊天吗? ]: Yeah
17-[ 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? ]: Not bad

18-[ 你觉得7号人怎么样? ]: Pretty and mature and nice fashion sense

19-[ 你觉得9号人怎么样? ]: Straight forward..fun..insane..and sometimes scary..

20-[ 你爱5号吗? ]: What the..look..she's Batman's girlfriend since she's Alfred's daughter..No way..no offense

1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的: Xiao Wen
2. 你们认识多久呢: Since form 1..the crazy class rep

3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗: Friends are important..Guys are so whatever..Break their hearts and you're so effing dead

4. 你与他(她)的关系是: Friends

5.你覺得他(她)的個性如何: She's sot sot..and more and more fun..^^

6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是: reading love stories..I think..

Spirit Bound

The fifth book, but not the last of the Vampire Academy series, Spirit Bound.

It's out next year, and to heck with SPM.. I'm gonna get my hands on it the first few days it's out!

Again, Spirit Bound..

P.S: I sincerely hope the dude in the picture with Rose is Dimitri and not Adrian..I have nothing against Adrian, but sorry man, Dimitri is PERFECT for Rose..
Ciao..

Blood Promise

Well, not really Blood Promise, but rather, the entire Vampire Academy series..

Richelle Mead you're the greatest writer ever!!!
VA is totally awesome, and I recommend everyone to read it..Personally, I think it's loads better than Twilight, but hey, I'm biased.. shrugs..

Anyway, Rose is totally kick ass, and sizzling hot Dimitri Belikov ( Well, according to Rose, seeing as I've never set my eyes on him before) still kicks major ass even when he's awakened as a Strigoi..

Dimitri, oh Dimitri, where for art thou? Well, most probably still in Russia, but hey, I was talking about the dhampir Dimitri, not the Strigoi Dimitri. I mean, I know, its not like they're in separate bodies or anything but, yeah, you get the picture..I'm rambling again..

Mmm..I really hope Dimitri and Rose get to be together in the end.. They're a match made in heaven.. or elsewhere, to quote Viktor Dashkov..

Don't know who I'm going on about? Read the book. Don't ask me.. I've got enough heartbreak when Dimitri turned Strigoi..Ah, the pain...

Cheers..

No no no...

I keep saying 'no' these days..Don't know why..

Arggh!! I do not like that guy and yet the quiz says...

I am most like Mac Taylor!!!! Gahh!!

Oh my lord...

No Way...

Oh no, I was right.. They did sleep with each other..Specifically, they pulled off a one-night-stand..

Yeah yeah, I know I've been rambling on and on about the two same people in my previous posts..And yeah, it's still Adam Ross and Stella Bonasera..

I can't believe they even did it!!!!!!!!
I didn't even think it was possible but well, guess the writers pretty much pulled off the impossible..

Weelll, Stella and Adam both agreed it was just once and will be the last time, but let's see if they can keep their hands off each other..I certainly hope they do..

Arghh! Mac Taylor! Where the hell are you!!! I thought you were the boss! SO JUST COME OUT AND STOP THEM FROM DOING IT!! OR I'LL LET THE BEACH BALL GO LIMP!!!

P.S: Sorry about that, I'm a Smacked fan..so yeah...
P.S (2): About the beach ball, Taylor's wife died in 911 and according to him, 'the beach ball still contains her breath' and he doesn't want to let the air out..

Cheers..

Trip to Singapore..

Back from Singapore today..No pics actually...cause I was too lazy..XD..
Anyway, we stayed at Shangri-la hotel this time instead of Orchard Mandarin Oriental. It was a nice change. The food was great...
Urggh..truth to be told I have no idea what to write about.. We had buffet for dinner almost every night..It was very fulling, nice and I enjoyed it...I bought loads of books and cds till the suitcase could nearly be closed..I bought CSI:NY Season 3...We met a little Robin when we landed at the airport..I saw 2 or 3 Lamborghinis and a Ferrari.. Il Divo was in Giorgio Armani when we walked by.. A guy said it was Brad Pitt..(WTF??) I got a little drunk dringking a delicious cocktail which had loads of gin in it... I bought a lot of classical music..I bought Blood Promise and The Last Olympian..Basically I got almost everything I needed..So yeah, it was ok..It was a quite relaxing trip but I'm glad I'm back..
Cheers..

No...

NOOO!!!
Heading to Singapore tomorrow!! I don't want to go!!!!
I want to stay at home and play the computer, play the piano and watch CSI:NY!!!

On the other hand, if I go there, I might be able to buy the books I want and also buy CSI:NY dvds..

But I still don't like Singapore..

The end.

Away..

Away, away, my beauty flies
To blessed Elysium, I rest
To the Fields of Torment I roam
To the Fields of Asphodel I wait
I roam and wander and fly away
The darkness comes and leaves at will
I stand and embrace my destiny
I stand and embrace the Shadows..

Brunch..

Went to Secret Recipe for brunch with Amy, Li Yi and Alfred today..It was quite fun..
I spent them for brunch, cause they've helped me out quite a bit..so thanks...^^
Erm, each of us had a slice of cake each and we shared two drinks..Amy had Indulgence, Alfred: Chocolate moist cake, Li Yi: Yogurt Cheese and me: White chocolate macadamia..Yummy!
I think we forgot that 'one slice' in Secret Recipe terms is pretty big, equivalent to 2 slices..So, we were filthy full..We had a little problem finishing the cakes, especially Amy, but then Alfred cam to the rescue! She finished the cake..lol..
We kept joking that if they were that full, they were going to be in trouble. 'They' meaning Alfred and Amy, cause they were going to Lost World after the brunch. Since they ate so much, we were afraid they would vomit when playing a sort of, I dunno, spinning ride. Talk about technicolor.

The funniest thing was, Li Yi was going to KL later and she remembered that she had packed her clothes...

But not her pants..lmao! She quickly called her dad and gave him instructions ad to which pants to bring. We were laughing like hyenas beside her. Good thing the shop was empty..

We took some photos, talked and fooled about. All in all, we had a great time.. Thanks guys!

Amy hiding her face with Alfie..

Li Yi on the phone.. Talking to bf or dad?

Alfie and Li Yi sharing milkshake.. Looks like they're kissing..=='

Amy and Alfie

Li Yi and me

Alfie's choco moist and Li Yi's yogurt cheese

Our choco-something with whipped cream and choco milkshake..Choco alert!

Amy's Indulgence and my almost-demolished white choco macadamia

Alfie's moist choco before being eaten..So delicious! It's warm! And also Li Yi's yogurt cheese

4S5 ROCKS!!!

Yesterday was the best day of school days..It was the last day of school cause today Hari Raya holidays start!

No one had the heart to study.. Heck I think even Ms Leong didn't have the heart to teach us..lol..cause we celebrated her 30th birthday! She was shocked, happy and she admitted herself that she was in high spirits and couldn't concentrate on teaching..lmao..anyway, happy birthday Ms Leong!

After that, we took pics with her and Pn Maimunah. Lots of people brought cameras and during Sivik, there was no teacher so everyone kept taking pics and eating Alfie's delicious mooncakes! Thanks Alfie!

It was really fun and wild..4S5, you're the best!!

Alfred, Li Yi, Yi Lin and me..

We took pictures of Ms Teh..She didn't even notice..lmao..

Alice, Amy, Yi Lin, Li Yi and me

Mostly everyone..Playing sakai..lol

Us with Pn Maimunah and Ms Leong

The whole class with Pn Norizan, our class teach

Drum roll please..Introducing the 'beauty queen' of our class...POH LI YI!!!

Sick..

Urghh..Bad gastric case..kept vomiting and my stomach felt like hell..
That was yesterday..since I couldn't stop puking, my mom said I didn't have to go to school today..

It would have been great..but...
I had to take those bitter and horrible Chinese medicines..urgh..

Sorry Li Yi, Zhi Yuen, Sook Peng and Yi Lin, today couldn't come.. And our Sivik presentation will probably be postponed again..So sorry...

Heck..

Had a weird dream last night..About CSI:NY..

I know, I know, I'm probably obsessed with this show right now but hey.. what can I do?

Anyway, like most of my dreams, they don't really make sense and are not continuous..
The first part was the actress playing Stella Bonasera saying that Adam Ross and Stella will be a couple, and that would be introduced in Season 4..I was like, what the heck? That is so not true but before I had the chance to panic, I blacked out again and the next time I was conscious in my dream world, the second part started..

I have no idea why this happened but, somehow Stella got killed.. I think it had something to do with the Season 5 finale where they were all in a bar drinking to Jessica when someone shot at the windows..Then, I heard that song 'Heaven Was Needing a Hero'..That wasn't really surprising because in one of my previous dreams, the song 'Thunder' by Boys Like Girls suddenly played in my mind.. So yeah.. Maybe my brain is complicated or unstable..but what the heck..

Back to Stella..I dunno..I just know she was killed and that everyone was crying and suddenly I got sucked into one of the characters, Lindsay, I think and man she was crying a river and kneeling on the ground.. Stuff like that.. And let me tell you, it's so not pleasant to get sucked into a character so suddenly. You get confused and you don't know who you are for a while..so ..yeah..

Anyway, it was weird, it was very vague, and it made me even more mad..My dream self even knew that..I remember her saying, 'Shit! if this happens in a dream that means that in Season 6 they will be together...' Ok..first time my dream self ever said anything..

But, that's all..And no, I am not insane, merely a little..in to the show..so yeah..ciao..

Meet Detective Don Flack

Guys, meet Detective Don Flack. Detective Don Flack, meet everyone..haha..this is Don Flack from CSI:NY and Poh's future boyfriend...He's cute, smart, funny and nice..Perfect bf Poh..Below are some of his funnier pics..enjoy..

No freaking way..

Oh. My. Lord.
Please tell me it isn't true.

All right, I've had quite a shitty day..Well, not really but..

Let's see.. I got told off in Maths class cause I kept blabbing away to Sook Peng..(P.S:Don't worry sook Peng, isn't your fault..) Fine.. The rest of the day was ok actually, but my mood went from 'calm' to 'ballistic'.

Remember my post about Adam Ross? How I'd kill him if I found out he slpet with Stella Bonasera?

Today, I went to a website to check out some pictures, and there was that stupid trailer again..

Ok, fine, I thought, never mind.. Maybe I'm just being paranoid..

But, wait a minute, I checked the comments, and unfortunately, I wasn't being paranoid..

Everyone said: OMG! Is that Stella in a bra and Adam on the bed looking happy?

Arghh!!! I swiched off the screen then, stormed downstairs just in time for dinner. One of my dad's friend, who I didn't really like cause he was very loud, came for dinner, which fouled my mood a little more.

Fine, I ignored him, finished dinner and went to practice the piano.

Well thanks to Adam Ross and Stella probably getting it on, that stupid image wouldn't get out of my mind. In tehe end, all the songs that I could play without a single mistake: Canon in D, Etude in E Major, Salut d'Amour and Secret Lives of Daydreams, I played them horribly. Gosh, it was disasterous...

Then, I gave up, I came back upstairs. i forgot to switch off the aircond for at least half an hour! Luckily, my dad didn't find out, or I'd be yelled at for not turning it off and for wasting electricity and for increasing the electric bill..

Gee, thanks a lot, Adam and Stella.. You made a perfectly fine day go rotten to the core...

Oh No..

Oh no..My dad wants to enroll me in a college in England next year, and he wants me to go to university there..
And he means it..There is no room for discussion..

I do NOT want to go to old effing England. I do not like England, and he had to send me there..I'd even go to Australia if there were no choice..

But England, no effing way, dad.. No way..

Special Post

Yeah, I changed my blog skin but since I was too much of a techno idiot, I had to ask and trouble Amy to do it for me..

So thanks Amy, and again sorry for troubling you, although you said it was no trouble..haha..

High School Never Ends

HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

4 Years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the (total dicks)
All the Stuck-up Chicks
So superficial, so immature

Then When you graduate,
Ya take a look around and you say "Hey Wait!"
This is the same as where I just came from,
I thought it was over, Aw that's just great.

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and (who's having sex)
Who‘s got the money. Who (gets the honeys)
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did!
And how did Mary Kate (lose all that weight?)
And (Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight!)

And the only thing that matters,
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're 16 or 35

Reese Witherspoon, she's the Prom Queen
Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback

Seen it all before
I want my money back!

Ch:
The Whole damn World is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's in the club and who's on the drugs
And who's throwin up before they digest

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

4 Years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the (total dicks)
All the Stuck-up Chicks
So superficial, so immature

Then When you graduate,
Ya take a look around and you say "Hey Wait!"
This is the same as where I just came from,
I thought it was over, Aw that's just great.

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money. Who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends


High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did!
And how did Mary Kate lose all that weight?
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight!

And the only thing that matters,
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're 16 or 35

Reese Witherspoon, she's the Prom Queen
Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback

Seen it all before
I want my money back!

Ch:
The Whole damn World is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's in the club and who's on the drugs
And who's throwin up before they digest

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
And you still listen to the same shit you did back then


High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and (who's having sex)
Who‘s got the money. Who (gets the honeys)
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And I still don't have the right look
And I still have the same 3 friends
And I'm pretty much - the same as - I was back then(hold en)

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
Here We Go Again

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Ch:
The Whole Damn World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money. Who gets the honeys
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And I still don't have the right look
And I still have the same 3 friends
And I'm pretty much - the same as - I was back then(hold en)

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
Here We Go Again

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh

P.S: That day Poh, me and Zhi Yuen were talking about how fun our class was, when I thought of this song..It sorta reminds me of how we are now..I know its about CSI:NY but, hey, it's still the same song right?



Disclaimer: This video does not belong to me..I just downloaded it form YouTube. All credit goes to the maker.

Adam Ross I Will Kill You

Yeah, as the title says, Adam Ross I WILL kill you if I find out that you're sleeping with Stella Bonasera..

All right, I know this is a little sudden and random, but let me just clear it up for you. I'm watching CSI:NY right now, it's a great show, and Season 6 will be airing. So today I was looking for pictures and I stumbled upon a website, can't remember what website it was. I think it was one of the entertainment websites. You know how they sometimes post videos about previews or interviews about the TV series?

That's when doomsday struck.

All right, all right, I'm exaggerating, but I so do not want Adam and Stella to end up together! So there was this promotional video about Season 6, mind you, it is official, not fan-made. And to my absolute, terrifying, catastrophic horror, I saw Stella half undressed and Adam on the bed.

Chtoh za huey?! Sorry, that's Russian for 'WTF'..

Oh good heavens! What has the world come to? What's next? Pigs sprouting wings and me becoming a billionaire like Bruce Wayne? I so cannot effing believe that the writers would do something like that!

I'm sorry I'm ranting but I'm upset, and when I'm upset, I'm nervous, and when I'm nervous, I get irritated, and when I'm irritated..Well, you get the idea..

O Zeu kai alloi theoi! (Ancient Greek curse) I really hope that it was maybe two different scenes together... Senka, tebe pizd'et...Oh my dear heavens...

4S5

I think I should write about our class 4S5, seeing it's already into September and yet I have not mentioned anything..

Let's see..4S5 is a mixture of 3p6 and 7, and also 2 other students from other classes. They had to mix the two noisiest classes together huh? Put 3p6 and 3p7 students together and you'll probably get a zoo. We are known for being noisy when there is no lessons, and yet passive when the teacher asks questions. Then we all just shut up there and then and pretend we don't know the answer to the questions.

Hmm..when I was in 3p7, we were a little more serious. But in 4S5, let's just say all hell is loose. We sing birthday songs when its someone's birthday, we joke with the teacher and even tease the teacher, especially Ms Leong, we scream and shout when we have won something, we work our asses of when there is work to be done or competitions to be won, and a certain Ms Amy wants to hold parties for every occassion. Just today she was saying she wanted to holda gathering for the Mooncake Festival, Halloween and Christmas. And the craziest thing is that I fully agree with her! Now, those who know me a few years ago would know that I probably would've just reject the idea of having so many gatherings or parties. But hey, when you have an enthusiastic planner like Amy, you learn to let your hair down once in a while.

I felt that this year, it truly is like high school. I mean, we worry about studies, but not too much. We have fun, we enjoy our time together, we fool around. We act like normal students.And I think that's the reason why 4S5 is the best class around. We act like a family; we are a family. So, here's to 4S5 and her students. Long live the spirit of 4S5! (Hehe)

If Heaven Was Needing A Hero

I came by today to see you
Oh I had to let you know
If I knew the last time that I held you was the last time
I'd have held you, and never let go

Oh, it's kept me awake nights, wondering
I lie in the dark, just asking why
I've always been told
You won't be called home
Until it's your time

I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

I remember the last time I saw you
Oh, you held your head up proud
I laughed inside
When I saw how you were standing out in the crowd
Your such a part of who I am
Now that part will just be void
No matter how much I need you now
Heaven needed you more

Cause heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you

Is Heaven was needing a hero
and that's you

Disclaimer: This song is by Jo Dee Messina, not me. I could never write such a beautiful song...

Second Random CSI

Hmm..let's see, I talked about Jess yesterday.. Let's talk about Peyton Driscoll today..

I hate her.

Okay, maybe 'hate' is too strong. I dislike her...Why? Well, hmm..actually I don't really know why..Just that she dated Mac Taylor and well..I kinda want Mac to get together with Stella..So..Yeah...lame huh? Meh, at least she's in England now... Smiles evilly...

Yeah..I know I posted the video on the side iPod but..I'll post it again here..

Again to Jess, and also to Aiden Burn...



Disclaimer: This video is not my creation. I just downloaded it from YouTube. All credit goes to the creator.

Random CSI

Maybe it's just another of my 'passing favourites' now but I just love CSI:NY. No, not CSI:Miami, sorry..Cause I just don't like the main character.
I just love Danny Messer, Don Flack and Jessica Angell. Especially Jessica. Unfortunately, she died..It's so sad..She's such and important part of the team and BOOM! They just kill her off like that..
Poor Don, seeing his girlfriend die like that..Anyway, here's a toast to Jessica Angell, even if she is a fictional character. That little video in the side iPod was a beautiful and sad video as a tribute to her..
Ah well..

Happy Birthday

Happy 52nd birthday my beautiful Malaysia!

Celebration

Soon it will be a time of celebration, at least, a time of celebration for those who love Malaysia truly, and not those who say they are Malaysian but keep complaining about this wonderful country.
I was born in Malaysia. I live in Malaysia and I love Malaysia. Unlike many others, I do not wish to go overseas and live there or study there even though I know I have the ability to do so. My friends always say it's a waste that I can afford to go overseas to study or even live there when I don't even want to do so. I know there are many people who are dissatisfied with Malaysia.

They say Malaysia is still a developing country and ought to be ashamed as Singapore who was once a part of Malaysia, is now a developed country. They think Singapore is better and that Malaysia is not up to par with Singapore.

I have nothing against Singapore or any other countries. I'm not an extremist, just someone who loves her country as much as her family. Since I was a kid my parents taught me to appreciate what I have, to appreciate my country and everything she has given to me.
Imagine if you lived in other war-ridden countries like Iraq or Palestine. Imagine if you lived in countries full of chaos everyday like Thailand. Imagine if you lived in poverty-stricken countries like Africa where children die everyday just because they're hungry.

We have everything we need here in Malaysia. Abundant food, water, shelter, great weather, no war. And yet, that's not enough for many people. No, we have to be strong and rich like America or Japan or Singapore, they say. Maybe Malaysia isn't that rich compared to those countries now, maybe we aren't that technologically advanced like America right now. To me, it doesn't matter. We will be better and stronger than them one day, I truly believe that. We don't have to be the country with the newest technology or the best military in the world to be great. We don't have to have fancy police squads with great forensics equipment or the latest espionage equipment. We have our own police and army which consist of brave men and women prepared to die for their country. Isn't that enough?

You might think my opinion childish, but I'll always hold true to my belief that Malaysia is the best country. She is my home. She gave me everything that I have now. She gave me a place to belong. I am proud to call myself Malaysian. I am proud to say that I come from Malaysia when I am abroad. I am proud and honoured to call her my home. She is my home, forever and always.

Happy 52nd Merdeka Malaysia. May you flourish as years go by.

Letter to Azuma Yunoki

To Azuma:

Greetings Azuma.. Are you still as cynical as ever? You know, I think Kahoko is still afraid of you. But, that's what you want her to feel right? Nice one..
Hmm..let's see, you'll be going to America to get your MBA right? Do you plan on coming back after that? I'm sure the Yunoki Guard and Hihara would miss you very much if you don't come back...
I'm still trying to figure out how do you control your emotions in front of your grandma. By the way, she is one creepy lady, glad she isn't my grandma. But hey, you gave the term 'poker face' a new definition. I'm sure you're great at playing poker.. That is, if you play poker..

Anyway, nothing much to say, so I'll just say good luck to you in getting your MBA and also providing me more entertainment by tormenting Kahoko.
Cheers!

Yours sincerely,
Shadow

Random

I got my new phone! Finally!
It's a Nokia Xpress Music with 8 gb of memory!
I know, I know that I'm probably bragging but.. what can I do?
I can finally store music without having to worry about the space anymore!
Yipee!

Eww..why am I so..hyperactive? Or is it happy?
Gross...

Pro Musica 2009

Wow...erm..how should I describe this event?
For those of you who don't know, it was a sort of opera concert. I suppose it was okay..Some of the songs were nice like Auf Flugeln des Gesanges by Mendelssohn. There was one song I thought boring, but of course, it was just my opinion. After all, I am no professional.
The Faust duet "Il se fait tard", Marguerite, Faust creeped me out. Actually, grossed me out would be more appropriate. There was another one before this duet by the same two opera singers but I couldn't remember the title that also grossed me out.
No, it was not violent. Violent I could handle but it was so...so romantic..Eww!
The two of them were like touching each others faces, holding hands, hugging, the woman laid her head on the guy's chest. Heck, they even kissed!
At one part, they were like okay, holding each other, and suddenly, BOOM! The guy tries to kiss her and they're struggling with each other. Heavens! I nearly had a heart-attack and got a little hysterical after the concert was finished.

Well, that's all for now. Still, I can't quite get the image of those two people practically making out on the stage. Say, wonder whether they're dating???

Letter To Hino Kahoko

To Kahoko:

Sorry to say this but, are you dense? Do you even know 6 guys like you? Oh? You don't know who they are? Let me give you a recap: Ryoutarou, Len, Kazuki, Aoi Kaji, Azuma and possibly Keiichi.

There? Know them? Sure you do. They're you FRIENDS, duh! So choose already all right? People are going crazy wanting to know who you'll choose so get on with it! Sheesh...

Anyway, word of advice: Choose Ryoutarou or I will wreak havoc upon your life! Hahaha...(not..)

Yours sincerely,
Shadow

Letter To Shimizu Keiichi

To Shimizu:

Hi..How's your cello playing these days? Still playing Bach compositions? Or have you been sleeping everywhere anytime as usual? So adorable..Haha...
This will be a short letter cause there's really not much to say.. Oh yeah.. When are you going to ask Shoko-chan out? Come on, it's obvious you like her...Ask her out..I'm sure she'll say yes..^^

Anyway, just want to say your great at playing the cello, you're a prodigy and you are soooo adorable..Hehe..Bye bye, and let me know when you and Shoko-chan are dating..Haha..

Love, Shadow

Drat...

Just as the title says..Drat...
We have a new Maths teacher and well, I don't know half of what she just said today..
I mean, it's not like I don't like her, it's just that, I don't understand what she's trying to teach us...
I, and my maths, are so effing doomed..

Victory!

Victory to 4S5!
Woohoo! We won the competition for gaining most profit!
Thanks all of you who did so much hard work to prepare the maze and also to act as ghosts, even though I was too afraid to go in...haha...
Anyway, we are so going to PARTY!!!!!!
Go 4S5, oh yeah...

A Letter To Ryoutarou

Well, I've written a letter to Len, and now its Ryoutarou's turn..

Ryoutarou:

Honestly, I don't really know what I should say. But first, let me say that your piano playing is absolutely marvelous, possibly even preceding that of Hamai Misa's. You truly are talented.

Next, you're a great guy: kind, warm, friendly, talented...Not like someone you and I both know..So while his letter is full of reprimands, I am happy to say that your letter will be full of praises.

You're perfect for Kahoko. From the first time you saved her from falling, to the time you accompanied her even though you did not want anyone to know of your talent, to the time you played Liszt's Dreams of Love..Ah, truly romantic...

I end this letter by sincerely wishing you good luck in your pursuit of Kahoko. A word of advice: Do NOT let Aoi Kaji or Len Tsukimori near her, and I am perfectly sure she will be yours. Good luck...

Yours sincerely,
Shadow

A letter to Len Tsukimori

Finally, something not so glum..
This is a letter to Len Tsukimori of La Corda D'Oro Primo Passo..

Len:
The first thing I want to say is, I know you are talented, that you are a prodigy. But honestly, it sure as hell does not give you the right to be that rude. No wonder Ryoutarou called you an ice cube...
Second thing, do you like Kahoko? I mean, for a guy who likes Kahoko, you sure are treating her rather badly. I mean, you are rude to her, you say she's bad at playing the violin, that her standard and yours are waaay apart. But when you see Ryoutarou or Kazuki being all friendly to her, you get jealous. Seriously, do you like her or not?
Third, I really hope you don't like her. At least, not in the romantic sense. But even if you like her, I hope she doesn't like you as someone more than a friend. No offense but does she even know you like her? Or for the matter, does she even know that you, Ryou, Kazuki and Azuma like her? Never mind..

Well, that's all I want to say. I hope Kahoko gets together with Ryou, and that you have another girlfriend who's not Kahoko..

Cheers..

Sincerely yours,
Shadow

P.S:This was not meant to insult anybody, just to make fun of ice cube here..hahaha...

Disillusion...

Just came back from the teachers' day dinner...would have been quite fun if only one important teacher was not missing...
Am I delusional for keep thinking about her and her departure?
I kept looking at the sea of faces,hoping I'd spot her among the throngs of people.
Hoping that she'd attend.
Hoping foolish hopes, even though I already knew she would not attend.
Is it wrong to keep my hopes up?
Is it wrong to keep on believing in the impossible? The unbelievable?
Once I would have known the answer, but now, I see nothing where I once saw something a long time ago...

Random...

PPS farewell is coming soon...
and we have to wear white..
no offense, but white?
You're asking me, Shadow, to wear white?
It's like asking a girl to become a boy!
Anyway, sounds like it's going to be fun..
yipee, I can't wait..
no, really...

Running away...

I always ran away, even when I was a kid.
I ran away from spiders, from darkness, from horror movies, from clowns, from the things I fear.

I still run away now, being the coward I am.
I run away when I'm scared, I run away when I'm sad.
I run away from reality. I've created a world in the back of my mind, such a beautiful, perfect world.
I'm mixing up reality and fantasy now. I'm so numb, numb to so many things.
I long to feel, to feel pain, sadness,and sometimes joy.

Maybe one day, one day I'll have the courage to stand up and fight.
To fight the shadows that have become me.
To fight the shadows that always told me everything will be alright.
To fight the shadows of disillusion.

Untitled

The winds of change
Blow
And yet I cannot stop them
Words fail me as I
Walk
Down the path of elusive shadows
A hundred lights once shined
And yet now there are ninety-nine
I wondered where that light had went
I wondered if it will once more
Shine
Alas I know
As the shadows do
That light, is forever gone...

Sorry...

How do you say goodbye to someone you always thought would be there? How do you say sorry to them after you find out they are leaving? Students of 4S5 would know who I'm talking about. Maybe I'm exaggerating, but I think that my friends feel the same. People never appreciate those around them until it's too late, or they're gone. I guess I'm one of those people, you know, taking for granted that that particular someone will always be there, never really noticing the things they did for us.

It's a little silly, but the incident today was the only thing that prompted me to write a blog. I never wanted a blog, found it pointless to pour your personal feelings so that everyone could see them. But I understand now, no man is an island. I need my friends to help me when I'm down. Thank you to all of you who helped me, well, not be so down, especially Yi Lin. Thanks you guys...