Please be ok..

Dear God, please watch over grandfather, please let him be safe and all right..

Please don't let him be in any dangerous situations.. Please let him be healthy soon..

Please don't take him away please?

I really hope you can listen.. I promise I'll pray more, just let him be all right..

3 Cheers for Poh..

The last year of school is, I think the most emotional year for everyone.

Yes we're done with school, but what about our friends? About the dreams we all dreamed in school?

Outcast I may be, but I will miss my friends, because they were the ones who gave me chances to be their friend.

I will miss every single one of you..especially Poh, whom everyone will miss..

Poh, thank you for everything you've done..

Like the first bloom in spring,
You bring fresh colours to our lives.
Like the Northern Star in the night sky,
You light up our lives whenever in darkness.
Like the nightingale's sweet sweet song,
You gave us joy and sweetness when we need it.
Like the strong boulder that stands through wind and rain,
You gave us a place to lean onto when we loose our way.
Like the gentle moon in darkest nights,
You shined your light and led us through.
Like everything sweet and good and blessed in this world,
You are the BEST, BEST friend anyone could ever have.
Let not a soul utter slanderous words in thy ears,
Let not a soul trample on thy gentle heart,
Let not a soul say you but the best,
For those who do are idiots of the worst kind.
Thou art the angel of heavens above.
Thou art our friend, and shalt be so for eternity..

Thank you Poh..Love ya..^^

Cheers..

101th Post

Finally reached post 101..

I've had a great time this holiday, but somehow I feel even more alienated..

What am I, an alien or something?

Why can't I fit in like everyone else?

I don't even ask to fit in..Just, can't I be accepted more into my group of friends? They're just a few people..Why can't I still fit in more?

Every time they talk and have fun, I just sit aside looking at them feeling like I'm an idiot. I know that most of it is my own fault for not joining them but..I don't even know what to say to them. Seriously, I don't think we're even on the same wavelength..

I have everything anyone could possibly want, and everything I want. So why can't I just fit in? Is it really too much to ask?

Cheers..

PPS Camp

First..I'd like to say THANKS to all of the O.Cs, Facis and Form 5s..Not to mention the campers..Thanks to all of your capable leadership skills, the camp was a huge HUGE success..Congrats..
Again, I'd like to say thanks especially to Vivian, Brenda, Poh and Yit Yeng, Eva, Jo Ee, Xi Yee and well, actually all of the Form 4 O.Cs..Without you guys, I doubt the camp could even be carried out..
What can I say about the camp? It's indescribable.. Our juniors, even though we had to scold them throughout the 3 days..They didn't give up..They tried their best and really improved so much..They really treated their Guardian Angels as someone they can rely on and they really appreciate their group leaders, facis and G.As..
I'm especially proud of Cheah Sook Theng, Lee Ja Nice and Debbie Phoo. Sook Theng and Ja Nice were my group members last year and I was their faci. I was so exasperated then cause they were all so passive. But this camp, I saw a great and good change in them. Both were fantastic leaders and could lead everyone without any problem. Thank you, the both of you. Seeing the both of you grow into such great leaders is the best gift anyone could ever give me.
Debbie as well. I only knew her this year, but when I see her leading her team, I was so happy. I was happy cause she was a real true leader and I couldn't be more proud of her.
I'm also proud of my humans, Lim Yen Ni and Loh Sook Kuen. The first day when I observed them both, they were so silent and passive. I was a little worried. But then I saw I worried in vain. As activities went on, the both of them started to be more active. They were involved more, they motivated their team mates on. They didn't give up when seniors scolded them. So, thank you, for being such fantastic humans and I'm so so proud of you both.
I'm also proud of all the O.Cs. Eva, Xi Yee, Jo Ee, Brenda, Jia Wei, Janice, Vivian Wong, Chi Kay, Jun Yi, Carmenn, Kar Mun, Xiao Thong, Khei Yan, Nicole, Wai Teng, Chia Mei.. They handled the pressure of running the whole camp splendidly, and put in so much effort and time and energy to make the entire thing a success.. Thank you for that.. (Paiseh oh..didn't help you out much..hehe..^^|||)
Thank you my friends, O.Cs, facis, campers..Thank you for making my last PPS camp in SMJK Ave Maria Convent so memorable..I will never forget anyone of you..Not now, not ever..Thank you..

PPS FOREVER!!

Untitled Once More

Ah..my faithful blog..Once, I wanted everyone to see my thoughts..yet now, I think it is better if no one ever read my thoughts..

Who would even care about the thoughts of some weird person anyway?

I always seem to be wallowing in self pity aren't I? Poor me, no one cares about me, poor me, no one cares about what I say; poor me, no one cares whether you live or die.

I'm sick of that. I should be stronger than that. Why should I care if anyone even cares about me or not? It doesn't matter anyway. No one will ever really understand me.

There I go again. Poor me, no one understands me.

Yeah right. You say you're strong, but are you? Or are you still that little girl who's afraid of everything? It's all right to be scared, but can't you stand up and ignore it for once?

So what if you feel lonely and think you don't have anyone in the world?

So what if you feel that you're worthless?

Sorry to disappoint buddy, the world ain't gonna wait for you while you sit there and cry.

So if you really are who you always say you are, then freaking stand up and ignore everything. If you really are as tough as you say, well then, prove it to me. Show me that you aren't a weakling who cries at everything.

Cheers..

Traitor..

Right. Traitor. Harlot. Fake. Was a friend. Was a wife. Was a queen.

Beneath all those, she was just a traitor, not fit to be a queen.

He trusted her. The people trusted her. And she went off with the flower of the knights. Wow, Gwynevere, nice way to gain the trust of the people. Bravo.

She was sentenced to death by fire, but guess what, her lover, the pious, perfect, Sir Lancelot, came to her rescue. Pah! Hogwash..

And yet, after all her wrongdoings, he still forgave her.

HELLO?? IS THERE LIKE, ANYONE EVEN HOME?

Why the heck did you forgive her after she betrayed you? And please, you have to admit she was the reason why Camelot fell.

And yet you still forgive her.

Yeah, sure, you can forgive the queen who turned traitor, yet you couldn't even forgive someone who made a mistake.

Nice going Arthur, I feel really safe with you being King of Camelot. Real safe.

Cheers..

No. Way.

Omg.. Rose did it with that jerk! Omg! She even thought that Dimitri doesn't love her anymore!

Just because he's guilty doesn't mean he doesn't love you you idiot! He just doesn't want to hurt you! What were you thinking betraying him like that? Omg! I sooo can't believe you!

Thanks for making my frigging day miserable! I am really sleep deprived right now, it's not even funny!

I woke at 6.30 and stared at the ceiling for 2 frigging hours then I find out that you went at it with him! I can't believe it!

What did make my day was watching bloopers for my fave hokkien tv series.. The Amazing Strategist Liu Bowen..
Technically it was the bloopers that made me lauh my ass off. I mean, my hokkien is totally lousy and even I know what they said was totally wrong! Lol!

Cheers..

Lyrics

I've been competing with XWen about Jay's lyrics on FB till Alfie went crazy..
lol..I'll continue here..

免费教学录影带
杰倫：老闆
巨砲：年輕人又來看吉他啦
杰倫：哦我要那一把
巨砲：那一把　哈哈　那是琵琶　不是吉他
杰倫：我是說旁邊那一把
巨砲：旁邊那一把很貴的
杰倫：你可不可以自然一點

如果你想要變成一個Rocker
你就必須要先給一把Guitar
刷和旋的時候盡量不用Pick
看起來樣子會比較隨性
就算你彈錯了大家會以為你是故意

你是不是　啊哈感覺到了
我的和旋　啊哈都重複著
哎喲不錯　代表你耳朵沒有聾
Blues就是在重複著幾個和旋
搖滾的節奏在右手　靈魂在左手　心就是宇宙
我彈的叫自由　噠噠噠啦

＊
聽我的Blues　要學會尖叫
比利克Pikes　是為了拍照
有一款Eyes　叫大不要潮
陽光不是為了把美遮住是為了夢想
但美麗太強沒人愛上我沒辦法

啊　斷了
沒關係再買一把吉他
沒有錢就借別人的吧
怎麼會有人喜歡摔吉他
有種你就摔最貴的吉他
你要好好珍惜它它才會對你說話

收載的如果家有電線
再加點不穩當彈簧沒了
就請你的單純給他個蹦
這時候你可以放她個蹦
哦哦美女在哪裡就要看到那裡
你一定以為我接下來要
不急我先教你彈
再下一個再下一個最後對一個

Repeat＊

再來一次哦
如果你加幾個音就變鄉村風味
大家提酒冷多音更想喝牛奶
別在更冒昧我不妨擠牛奶
不過不要被人自己攤上擠牛奶
因為零時要在路邊扎攤一頭牛擠的奶
啦啦啦啦啦

聽我的Blues　要學會尖叫
比利克Pikes　是為了拍照
有一款Eyes　叫大不要潮
陽光不是為了把美遮住是為了夢想
但美麗太強沒但美麗太強沒被人愛上我沒辦法
再彈一次最後一次在不一次Rocker被人愛上

OMG!!!!

Ladies and gentlemen, it gives me the utmost honour and pleasure to announce to all of you that...

Dimitri Belikove the DHAMPIR is like totally back!!

Oh my freaking god!!!

My heart was like totally pounding inside my rib cage as I scrolled down the e-book in my handphone.. My thumb was getting sore..

There were a few passages hinting at his return but I wanted to be sure..

I scrolled down to nearly the last paragraphs and voila!!!

Dimitri is so totally rocking Vampire Academy once more baby!!

Go Dimitri, Yes Dimitri

Die Ivashkov, Sic Ivashkov

You're the man Belikov!!

Wohoo!!!

Salvation from the slimy womanizing hands of Adrian Ivashkov!!!

Thank you thank you!!!

Adrian go to HELL!!!!

Arghh!!!!!!!!!

Cheers..

P.S: To Yuan Gee

Maybe you can't read this, but I just wanted to let you know the ending of Spirit Bound, the book we've been waiting for so long..

I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise to you that you WILL read this book, so this is the least I can do.

Dimitri Belikov who was turned into Strigoi in Shadow Kiss, you know the purple cover book? has now been turned back into a dhampir..I will write more once I've really finsihed the book..Cheers my friend..Cheers..

Sushi King...

Went to Sushi King with Amy and M & M on Friday..Last day of school..Ah, the fresh scent of freedom..

Went by car..Sorry, I am NOT walking over there..I hate traffic..

Ordered our food, then the both of them just latched their fingers onto my iTouch and hand phone, said they were obsessed with on-lining..So they just sat there and competed with each other who types the fastest, yadda yadda yadda.

We had to wait for like, half and hour to 45 minutes before the sushi even managed to place their lead-lined feet on our table. Well, technically, it's the waiters who are slow...

The food was not bad, satisfying.. We wanted to order ice cream, but they said it was sold out..

Then Amy saw two ice creams on the rotating belt. We asked one waitress whether it was ok to just take it off the belt. She looked at us like we were insane.. Oh well..

Overall, it was fun...So, thanks Amy and Zhi Yuen for eating there..

Cheers..

Destiny..

Destiny is over rated. Sorry, but true.

Yeah, some things may be set in stone, but not everything is so.

Do you love someone just because you're fated to be with them?

Do you let someone you really love go just because you were 'fated' to be with another? That it is your destiny?

Do you let yourself just go, and become someone else because you were fated to do so?

Do you become evil just because some stupid prophecy said so?

Or do you fight it, not caring what the hell destiny or fate wants for you, just caring about what you yourself want?

You either choose to do it or not, no other choice.

You either choose to let your life be controlled or you make your own life.

So, actually, while I sound so angry up there, it all boils down to ...

Right, the TV series Merlin.

I have asked myself this question over and over again.

How the HELL did a maidservant get together with a prince?

Did protocol and social hierarchy just change without me knowing it?

Hello?! You're a frigging prince, not a douchebag.

Ok, technically, you are, but that's not the issue.

The frigging issue, my dear Prince Arthur, is that you're a frigging idiot if you chose that..that..THING. Hey, Arthur may be a historical figure I think of like a hero, but the one I like is the King, and he sure ain't an idiot.

So either you choose to be an idiot, or you choose the smart thing and frigging go after Morgana. And you frigging dragon, just cause you make frigging prophecies, doesn't mean they're going to come true. Kapisch?

Idiots..I'm surrounded by frigging idiots..Good lord..Where have all sane people went?

Cheers..

I Hate You

I hate you
You hate me
I hate you more than you hate me
With a great big kick to your ass you little bitch
Won't you say I hate you too

P.S : I hate you GWEN!!!!!!!!!!!!